ITS A TOTAL LIE, BUT IT'S EASIER ON ME. OR MAYBE I JUST LIKE THE SYMPATHY. My mother stood senseless by my bedside. "So the doctors told me what happened." I have heard that sentence countless times. "You almost lost the baby." She spoke spiritlessly. I nodded. "I wish you had." "What?" I couldn't understand. "Honey, you cannot have a baby." She said as defiantly as possible. "You still have to finish highschool... you have to go to college..." and she had tears in her eyes, suddenly jumping to conclusions... "nobody will want to marry you, and you're so beautiful... don't waste yourself." She had been crying hysterically. Nobody wanted this. Nobody wanted this. "Fine, mom." She looked hopeful, listening hard. "I'll have an abortion." She smiled. "Thank you... oh... thank you."