Hey I havent written in this for a long time. But I'm a senior now and i leave school early everyday to go to work at Schnucks. Me and Josh are still together and lifes goin well.

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On Friday i stayed the night with Kayla and then i went to Josh's in the morning, we got in a fight then had make up... He took me to work and i quit my job at 6:40pm... they had me scheduled to work till 11:30pm. So i screwed them over. But that night i went to a party and they made everyone leave who was drinking. So me and meg met josh and his friends and they wanted to go to Haley's(thats Josh's exgirlfriend!!) I was like hell no and i pushed him away. I told him to go. But later that night we ended up picking them up and hangin out. I stayed the night with meg. I forget how many times i went to Josh's so that means i forget how many *** but let me tell you last night was the best. And i am finally a senior. I probably wont be able to write in my diary for a while since summer is here. O yeah Thomas(the kid from belgium) didn't sell me his car.

I had to work opening night for Star Wars... it sucked really bad, i thought i was gunna pass out. Way to many ppl came to see that. But i didnt go to bed till 1:30 and i had a final at 7:35am. But yeah i didnt get to talk to Josh that day and i didnt get to call him till 11:30 last night. But when i called him there wasn't that much to talk about so it was gay. I told him to let me go and he did but it was in a bitch made way. So i tried not to call him back because i knew it would be worthless but i did anyways and i was right. We didnt talk about anything so just told him i would talk to him Mondy or something and he acted like he didnt care. It pissed me off so bad, but i think he did it cause he offered to see me in the mornings this weekend but i thought that would be gay cause we're not gunna get up early and i have to go to work in the afternoon, it would be worthless. Yeah but it was gay.

I didnt go see Star Wars cause i wasn't aloud to bring any one. But last night i went to josh's and we played football. tonight i have to work from 8-12:30 but i'm supposed to go to dance from 8-9. I only have 2 practices before the recital. So i think im gunna go to practice and just be late. We were talking about hannah today at lunch and she new it. She's so dumb though, i used to look up to her so much and now i feel like i have to look out for her. She's fuckin her self over.

I still havent gone to see Crash. But tomarrow night me and Josh are going to preview Star Wars before we show it in theaters. Last night was Josh and mine's 5 month. I stayed the night with him on Sat. and we went to some parties and drank. On Friday i wasnt planning on doing anything cause i had to work... but after a got off work Megan called me and she really sounded upset so i stayed the night at her house. I'm really scared for her because she thinks that no one would miss her if she died. and i think she depends on her boyfriend to much. It could be dangerous if her and justin break up. My mom had 3 smirnoff's in the fridge and my sis and her boyfriend each had one. I had took the other one because i knew i would be drinking later that night. Well my mom noticed they were gone and asked my sis about them... she took all the blame and told her she thought it was flavored water. But i did 4* times.

I went to Josh's last night and i gave it was insane before i did though... And today i think we're going to go see the movie Crash. Then i have to work. I'm buying Thomas's car in less than 2 weeks. But josh's car isn't working.

I went to josh's yest. after my group got done with the R... we were having a good time. i gave. and then we got in an argument. Because i can't communicate. But we talked on the phone till 1 and everythings okay.. he just wants to be able to talk to me about anything. but i painted the R with my group this morning. and after school we have to mulch around it. then i have to work from 8-11 how gay is that? O and this weekend i went to Indy for my cousins wedding and it was fun, the next day we went to forever 21 and i got some really slutty shirts lol jp. but yeah i got some cute shit.

Josh turns 18 in exactly 1 month. Yest. he had his friends over to drink cause they don't really have school tomarrow they just had to go for a little bid for something, but i stopped by to say hi for 2 seconds... lol i hope he thought it was cute instead of just weird... cause he didnt know i was comming... but i just wanted a kiss goodbye. Anyways today a girl asked to take a picture of me for her senior project on style. My grandparents got intown yest. I watched a movie called Savage Messiah, it was really good, check it out. Oh, and i started my period.

Yest. me and my sister had to work and i had to train her... she is sooo slow! i thought i was supposed to get off at 8 but i was scheduled to 11. I was so pissed cause i had an essay do today and i didnt get it finished. Today im goin to matts house to finish our cereal product for marketing, its going to be hard on me cause the people over there are going to be smoking and i just quit so pray for me. I went to Josh's two nights ago and it was cool, but his car is breaking down. and my grandparents were supposed to come the other day also but there transmission blew up.

a lil about me... Name: Willow Birthday: July 24 Age: 17 Sign: Leo Hair color: a little bit of everything Eye color: Hazel Height: 5’3 or 5’4 Do you wear Glasses or Contacts: none; but I think glasses are hott Are you a Girl or Guy: Girl Do you go to school: Yes What school do you go to: RHS: Reitz What grade are you in: Junior Do you play any sports: No,I dance and have played football a couple of times Where were you born: Evansville Who do you live with: my parents Do you have any brothers or sisters: Yes. one brother and one sister What are their names: Jared and Aspen Do you have any pets: yes Whatkinds:4dogs-2 pit bulls, an italian greyhound, and a whippet What grade school did u go too: West Terrace What Jr. High did you go to: Perry Heights Have you ever moved: no ~*~Friends~*~ Do you have a best friend: yes Who is it: Megan,Chris,Kyle,Matt, and Josh is getting there How long have you been best friends: for a long time Which one of your friends family's do you know the best: all ~*~OPPOSITE SEX~*~ Do you have a boyfriend: yes What is his name: Josh How old is he: 17 ~*~FAVORITES~*~ Color: orange State: don’t have one Shampoo: Suave Conditioner: Suave Soap: Dial Place: The movies Food: anything.. Drink: Dr. Pepper but i stopped drinking cokes Person: i can't decide Family member: my mom Flower: I don’t think I like flowers Candy: any kind Actor: don’t have one Actress: don’t have one Movie: couldn’t tell ya’ Tv Show: CSI Website: ??? Gum: I have no idea Toothpaste: whatever works Insect: Locust Teacher: .... Grade: not this one ~*~HAVE YOU EVER~*~ Climbed a mountain: no Been camping: yes Ate a whole box of Oreo's: almost ;) Stayed home just cause: yea Went skydiving: nope.. it would be cool tho. ~*~ WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU...~*~ Cried: last week Laughed: 10 minutes ago, at lunch Danced: yesterday Kissed someone: 2 days ago Hugged someone: yesterday Swam: a while Showered: Last night Ate: 50 minutes ago Bought something: a couple weeks

I went to Tennessee for the weekend and we got pro pictures taken. The we had reservations at an italian restaraunt and we waited two hours for food that wasnt even good. I missed Josh... but im gunna see him today... even though my grandparents are coming intown today... and then 2 aunts and my cuz are coming and then we're goin to Indy for a wedding... so i wont really get to see him much this week. Hannah called me this weekend and left me 3 voice mails about how im her best friend and this isn't right that we're not talkin... so i called her back and i guess we're cool... She's moving back in with her mom today. It's my sisters first day at work today!!

I turn 18 3 months from yest. on sat me and josh hung out and we **nlat then 2?? then he had people over... i dont think im gunna see him for a week unless i see him today cuz im goin to tennessee on thursday or friday and won't get back till Monday. then after that im goin to Indy

I dont know what to do... i have to save money to buy a car and pay for insurence... but ashley wants me to go to florida with her for 2 or 3 weeks this summer... and Matt is going to Belgium with Thomas and i wanna go... the price is really cheap for what i thought it would be... but also i wanna be with Josh... what would you do? Josh's brother got locked up again... it sucks really bad.

Friday i gave blood and left school early to go to josh's. Then we went to a party and i feel so much closer to him. Everytime i see him i fall for him more and more. but anyways he told me he didnt wanna ## anymore because he didnt want to screw up my life or his. So i agreed but it was just to hard so we did it on sunday. But im not gunna do it again until i get the pill. But on Sat i had a bon fire at my house and on sunday i went to josh's aunts house for his moms bday. So i ate so much food the past couple of days. O yeah on sat josh came over then he left to go to a party but my family watched the UCF fights. Last night i had to close box but our closing concessionist didnt come in so me and eric had to close it. Today im goin over to josh's and we're gunna go see Amityville Horror. My M. is working and he's been calling me so josh wants to give him a clue>>>

I guess i cant do megan or kayla's hair for prom... i have to go to Tenn. for a fam. reunion. It sucks cause there's gunna be so many parties that night. i wrote hannah a note yest. and it was kinda mean but she needed to hear it...

Prom night was sat. and i did Megans hair. but i got sick while i was doing it... so me and josh couldn't go eat with her and justin... a long time ago i decided i didnt want to go so me and josh planned on spending time alone together on that night... and we did. it was amazing... i ended up staying the night there... we drank and had ## 4 times. in the morning i lost my hair thing and found it in my underwear... i didnt have my uniform for work but my manager just had me set up interviews and clean the bathroom. i cant wait for M.Ds prom because im doing megs and kaylas hair and spending time with josh... we're gunna go out to some parties i think im gunna wear a skirt i bought yest. its hot.... oh yeah my old bf(kayla) used to like josh and i work with her... one of my friends at work pointed out a hicky on my neck to her... i felt so bad... and Hannah is going back out with jason(the guy who got in my face and busted down her door) actually they aren't going back out they are just ###ing. so i called her dubT and now she's pissed at me.. but screw her she screwin her freinds over for a dirty infected loser.

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I feel like i havent seen him in forever.. i really miss him...it's weird cause i talk to him everynight... its just that i havent seen him since sunday. but thank god im going to his house after school today. He told me he couldnt sleep the other night so he wrote me a two page note. its weird cause both of us get sick to our stomaches when we're scared that one of us doesnt like the other anymore. i think im gunna tell him how i feel about him today. but usually the only way i can tell someone how i feel is to write it down. yest. i took Pks. and we got out of school early so a bunch of us went to matts then we went to China Town Buffet then saw Sin City.

Spring Break wasnt anything special... i did the usual. I went to parties, worked, and just hung out. I told my mom i was going camping, but instead i just stayed at josh's for 2 nights. dont ask me how many *****. We got to know eachother so much better, like i told him everything. Oh and remember when i thought something was wrong with my dads heart then they found something on the base of his brain... well he got his results back and hes okay. Thank God. Oh and can you believe UNC won the tournament?! that blows