yup..im bleh...i actually wanted blah.....bleh with do just fine.okay...i havent updated in so long...hm....k..sonny broke up with me i took him back i broke up with him and he wants me back...its very weird...also...wen already asked me out i dont want him as more than a friend but i dont know how to tell him that...without hurting him jakob asked me out..he's nice..but he's a little rich boy that is too sarcastic...escpecially when he needs to be serious..and he already has a girlfriend but he was going to break up with her for me..*shrugs* and then...there's teddy...he has a gf..messes around with everychic..then his gf comes and yells at me...says they're gonna beat the crap outta me..i'd actually like to see them try...she and her friend are both hardcore preps...but..i got connections to every social group..so...yea..they really just dont know who they are messing with..then..she tells teddy he's not allowed to talk to me..and he says she's not running his life*rolls eyes* yea..rachael(his gf) also lied to everyone..teddy knows it he just wont admit it..then there's patrick...patrick's so sweet and so kind...he's in football as a freshman in highschool this year...he and i talked on the phone all night last night...we both fell asleep on it..lol and then there's paul...paul's sweet and kinda and gentle...i cant find one bad thing to say about paul...he's a biker type guy..he's turning 17 december 5th.. he's liked me for a while and i knew he did..but he never admitted it because i was going out with sonny..now that im not...he wants to ask me out..but he's gonna give me time...he said in about a months time..lol..then..sonny...i told sonny i missed him and i do...i really do..but..i dont miss the relationship we had...there are parts that i missed...but..i mean..i dont miss the whole thing...just him....all i wanted was for him to be there for me when i needed him most..and he never was...he was always at james's house..grounded..or sleeping..and occationally at his grandpa's house...and...i was tired of being stood up a number of times...it annoyed me to no extent..dont you think that if you say your going to be somewhere at a certain time that you should be there...even if your just a little late...yea..he didnt even try to contact me..he just went to james's house and went on runescape...he could have gotten on messenger for a second and told me but nope..he ignored the fact that i was waiting for him..and i was just oh so tired of that..its funny though...we were broken up when this happend...and he's still not here for me when i need him..the only person that has been there for me whenever i need someone the most..is patrick..he's always been there for me..for the year that i've known him...always...we're planning on flying him out here so he can go to prom with me :P i pay for him to come and for the tickets..then he wants to stay a while...but he's paying for the plain ticket home...he said the ticket shouldnt cost more than around $200 or so and the prom tickets are $80 for a couple..and i cant go to prom till junior year..cause its the junior/senior prom...i went as a freshman ..but only cause jason took me as a friend..and oh boy...i loved it..once i left him..:) i think i want to take patrick senior year..and i still want sonny to go with me...he's outta school by prom..so i hope it wouldnt be a problem..his grandpa could fly them out here i would by the tickets..then we would go to prom :) no limo or anything though..too flashy...if i do get a limo i would pay for it..and it would be for senior year...of course...this whole plan thing might not work out..i only hope it does...well..hows that for an update :P i'll update more often..ba bye*Waves*