well, the question mark was not only for my spelling, but for the term itself. we are "friends" again, but for how long before yet another awkward moment squeezes in or before i do one final thing to fuc it up? something is off about this, i dunno, maybe my pessimistic sketicism is kicking in once again, but hey whats wrong with that right... i dunno, i mean i guess everything is kosher and all, but....i dunno. i think nono i KNOW this shit will stay up in the air. im never even gonna be able to hang out with him outside of school again, not without him wondering if i have some sort of alterior motive behind it--as if i would think it would still work after what has happened. pfft. we shall see, but i get thee feeling that nothing is ever gonna be the same b/w us. which really bites coz he's still fun to hang out with outside of school--infact he's somewhat of a dick inside school, so to not see him where he is somewhat HUMAN is pure torture. lol jk. i dunno, its just....off. something is off about all this and i dont exactly want to be a witness to everything crumbling down--however clearly i will be the main witness since this is my life and all. yeah......whateva.