God, I hate this. I hate not being able to trust Devin. I hate him knowing that I can't trust him. Last night was horrible. Let's just say my trust for Devin and Nicole's friendship didn't grow any stronger. He took one of those boyfriend application survey things, and answered it to Nicole. I know he's saying he though of me for some of the questions, but it seemed so real. Reading it made me sick to my stomach. So after I got off the computer, I talked to him on the phone. And he didn't reassure me that nothing was going on between them at all. I hate it. So I got off the phone and was so upset that I turned off the light, laid down in my bed in the pitch black, and cried myself to sleep. Yeah, not cool at all.