Wow. Where do I start? A few days ago, me and Devin got in a huge fight. He didn't tell me he was going to this show with his ex-girlfriend. I know it sounds dumb. But whatever. That's in the past. But last night, we got in another fight. I brought up that same ex-girlfriend as a joke, but he decided to make a whole conversation about her. And he knows I hate when he does that because he knows I don't like her. And I asked him to stop, but he wouldn't. It was horrible. Then he started saying things in Spanish to me, and I have no clue what they meant. So then I got off the computer and went upstairs. After awhile, I called Devin, and he hung up on me. So I called Nicole. And I was talking to her for a few minutes. So she decided to be a good friend and talk to him. So she was telling me what he was saying. And when she said to call me, he said, "No, she's boring to talk to on the phone." Well yeah, I don't talk because you're never talking to me, you're always busy. God. Yeah whatever. Anyway, he said he hung up because it would wake his grandma up or whatever. So later on he called me. I told him I would try harder to get over this thing with his ex, because it wasn't like I wasn't trying already. So he said okay. And I asked him what he said in Spanish, and he said he wouldn't say it to me in English. It's probably something how he doesn't really love me. Ugh. Then I let him go, cause you know, I'm so fucking boring and all. So we ended our conversation normally, unlike how it usually takes us five minutes to hang up. He knows he hurts me, and I can't take it. I don't know what to do. For the first time since we've been together, I thought about breaking up with him. He knows he has the power to hurt me, but I don't have that same power. It's not fair. And I hate it. And I can't take it. Oh yeah. I had dream last night. And I think it was one of those that show what you're really thinking about. I was going out with some random kid. And he sang to me and took walks with him. And we were like kissing in the middle of the street. I don't know. But it was me, with some other guy.