today is boring. i'm about to cry. i don't know why. i wish that i could understand but i don't. i guess its that time of month where i get depressed for no reason. i hate it when that happens. i feel all alone. basically dead. i have a pain in my side and it won't go away. the problem is that i always have to do things. For example, i always like to have the computer room door closed. my brother just walked in and left the door open. so i had to get up and close the door. i have to get my moms purse. i have to get papers for my dad. i have to turn off every light in the house. i have to feed the cats (We have 3 cats) i have to feed my hamster. i have to watch the food. i have to turn on the tv for people. i have to turn up the volume. i have to get food for people. i have to watch peoples stuff. i have to take people to the bathroom (stupid ass buddy system). i have to pick things up and hand em to people. i have to make sure the door is looked. i have to clean up my brothers messes. i have to clean up trash that people left in the room. i have to turn on the computer. i have to ask for people. i have to find people and tell them that someone needs them. i have to clean up the mess in the living room. i have to put dvds in the dvd player. i have to get blankets for people. i have to tell them to shut up. i have to go all the way from the one place to the other for people. i have to do almost everything. and in the end i'm all alone. like when i went to kaylas house. "Stephy can you get the chips?" "stephy can you put in the dvd?" "Stephy can't sit here. i want laura and madeleine to sit by me." "stephy, can you go get the remote?" "stphy, can you go find that movie that we wanted to watch?" I FUCKING TIRED OFF THAT! STOP ASKING ME TO DO EVERY DAMN THING! THATS CALLED LAZYNESS! I ALWAYS GET CALLED THE LAZY ONE! I'M ALWAYS THE ONE WO HAS TO DO AND GET EVERYTHING FOR PEOPLE! OH WAIT THAT'S RIGHT! I ALMOST FORGOT, STOP BLAMING EVERYTHING ON ME!MY BROTHER DOES ENOUGH OF THAT ALREADY!YOU PEOPLE ARE MAKING ME THINK THAT I'M JUST HERE TO BE YOUR SERVENT! I GET THE STUFF AND YOU BARROW IT! OR YOU JUST STEAL IT! STOP IT NOW! *takes deep breath* but really... stop it... unless you think i'm your servent then i'll just ignore you. i won't do a damn thing for you unless you stop. GO DO IT YOURSELF!