I guess I can just start this entry off with why my current mood is "Renewed"... I went to Acquire the Fire this weekend which is a HUGE christian convention. It is so much fun! This is my 3rd year going! And it was a blast! I feel like I am so closer to god now. I feel like a completely different person.. I really feel like I connected with God this weekend and that I dont want to be on a "Spiritual Rollercoaster" anymore. I want to commit my life to him. I mean everyone says "Oh yeah! I'm a christian. I go to Church, I go to Youth group," Yeah but are you TRULY a christian? Have you really dedicated your life to God and told him that you are going to follow him for the rest of your life? I agree with a lot of people on how it kinda makes me mad when people wear like Christian T-Shirts and sing their songs and wear Crosses and Cuss all the time, or drink or do drugs. Or Even Have sex. For example: A lot of rappers do that. They wear a cross around their neck and in a music video they curse and have sex and do drugs! HELLO! You dont do that, and if you do, you should be ashamed. When you cuss, it is like slapping God in the face, if you use his or Jesus' name in vain. Like Mike said, you dont see people walking around yelling "Oh Buddah!" I mean come on, I would be really upset if people considered my name a cuss word! I would be furious! Well that is enough about that for now. I will try and share some more about ATF later in the week. Now for some other things that have came up during ATF. - I heard some sad news about a very special person (No I am not going to tell you and no, no one died) - I have came to my senses about Scott. I love him as a friend and nothing more. It just like basically hit me while I was there that I can talk to him when we are not going out better than when we do go out. And I know he loves me but I think he will understand how I feel. I'm sure he is kinda there with me on this one. But I just have to find a way to talk to him and not brake his heart at the same time.... Life can be so complicated sometimes! :) You know you love me, Laurie Galations 1:6-7