Well i had gone to planed parent hood the other day cuz well yeha i needed a check up so i go in there and the doctor askes me "You look Really Tired...Are You Getting enough sleep?" im like yeah thats all i fucken do.. and im constantly tired... Always tired and im Drasticly gaining weight.. and i dont know what to do.. so she goes "We REALLY need to get you tested for problems with your Thyroid." im like wtf? shes like "If we dont get this checked out and we later on find something wrong down the road you could possibly die." im like WONDERFUL.... So she wrote me a referal fer Lourds clinic.. so i have to go and get blood work.. and a whole mess of shit..and i have to get tested fer sumthing like mono only its like 40 times worse... i really dont know what to say er fucken do ne more.. I mean Back in sept. when i went there the first time i weighted 118 pds. NOW I Weigh....142...i cant fucken do tis shit ne more.. i hate feeling so fucken fat and ugly.. and gah.. idk.. plus SOMEONE thinks its awsome to uh write stupid ass things about how stupid i am.. hahahaha motherfucker please... last time i checked i was WAY better then you.. why do you think reba wont go to ur dance tonight bitch ass :) yeah well idk im kinda bored and shit so yeah im outta here ♥I Heart my DirTy LiTtLe SeCrEt;)♥ Serenity By: Godsmack As I sit here and slowly close my eyes I take another deep breath And feel the wind pass through my body I’m the one in your soul Reflecting the light Protect the ones who hold you Cradling your inner child It’s serenity In a place where I can hide I need serenity Nothing changes, days go by Where do we go when we just don’t know And how do we relight the flame when it’s cold Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing And when will we learn to control Tragic visions slowly stole my life Tore away everything Cheating me out of my time I’m the one who loves you No matter wrong or right And every day I hold you I hold you with my inner child It’s serenity In a place where I can hide I need serenity Nothing changes, days go by Where do we go when we just don’t know And how do we relight the flame when it’s cold Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing And when will we learn to control Where do we go when we just don’t know And how do we relight the flame when it’s cold Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing And when will we learn to control