I had a long discussion with my mom a couple nights ago... I was talking to her about how I thought that I am really having a hard time with how everyone has been acting lately and how a bunch of stuff was stressing me out... I actually started crying during it... (kidna... I got teary... I sometimes do when i am really embaressed) but it was really weird... She kept asking me if there was something really wrong... like I was doing drugs, or thinknig about comiting suicide, she also was wondering if I was gay and was afraid to come out (I actually thought this was kinda funny) but ya... She has been really nice to me... and I do feel a little bit better... Our entire family has been a little tense lately and she is trying to help make it a little bit less so. I really am greatfull for that. I also want to really thank Cait, Addie, Zoe, and Ian for helping me get through the last few months. Cait, thank you for being the one that I can love, hold, and simply be with. Addie, thanks for being the on that will invite me over and we can just chill out and relax. Zoe, thank you for being the one that I can talk to, I am glad you talk to me, and I am glad that you listen to me in turn. Ian, I definitly would not have made it though the last few months if it were not for you. Whenever it is just too much I will go over to your house and we can just escape from the world for a few hours. Also that we can talk and talk about our lives and where they are going (Zoe... see, we talk about something besides boobs, butts, and video games!) I just really want to thank you guys for puttin gup with me when I havn't been that great of a friend (bf as well in Cait's case) and helping me get through this. I really hope my life can calm down a little...