Don't you hate the feeling... it's the one where you realize that no matter how hard you try, you are never going to succeed. I couldn't help feeling like that yesterday. I felt like I climb one mountain only to fall back down, or to realize that there is another mountain to climb at the summit of the first. Today was better though. I was especially happy with my visitor who came creaping up my stair and who to got to have a lengthy discussion with and just lay there and hold her. I think that it really is her and my friends that keep me going... I just want to thank you guys...