It hit me like a ton rocks today for some reason. I dont really know why but I realise that i am ok with it. I dont know how long I will be able to go like this in this situation but trying never hurt. Three years of a life gone but not ever wasted. I feel like this is an opportunity to start over start fresh. Its sad it really is and I will be broken for a while but I need fixing anyway. If you love something let it go and.....I wish it didnt have to be so hard to take.