I'll take this chance and won't look back I could never feel that way again You crush the lights I've known so long and all I thought was real Confusion clouds my mind Stop looking at me that way right now Your god told you that it's ok I guess you'll see what's real So, tell me now Why should I take this from you How could I waste my time Why should I take this from you A thousand years A thousand yesterdays I used to care I used to see So, tell me now Does it dream Now I'm the world you've feared so much and what you always meant to me I'll take this time to say goodbye This is forever Confusion clouds your mind Stop telling me how it is so right Your god told you that it's ok and now you know what's real ----------------------------------------- Well here I am. Alone and drunk again. My cousin came into town tonight. We hung out on sixth street for a while. He is so much cooler than I would ever want to be. Fucking player. In town for a few hours and he hooked up with some hot chick. So i went home, and she (the girl I've been talking to) came over. We watched a movie.... and she went home. What the fuck is wrong with me? Well, I'll feel better tomorrow, when I'm sober again. God damn it. Nothing ever changes. I always lose. Will I ever find someone who wants me? Probably not. At least, not until I learn to be happy with myself. Of course, I'd be happy with myself if I wasn't so lonley. Haha. Fucking ironic bullshit. I hate everything.