i literally havent listened or heard a leann ryhmes song since i was 8 but yet one is stuck in my head. i'm so damn annoyed. i just want senior year to be over already, i was excited before it started and maybe for like a week but i'm already over it. i need to be introduced to the real world, where i can fend for myself, because i think once i have to be independent, i can tell people that i really dont like to fuck off. the whole college application process is a lot more complicated than i imagined. i'm 99.7% sure i want to go to Kingsborough in brooklyn, but i have to go visit the campus and make sure. mark and i are also talking about getting our own apartment since if i move in with him it'll be 5 of us in a 3 bedroom apartment. it'll be expensive, but we won't have to deal with it til we're out of college. it's going to work out really good, because when i'm done with my 2 years at the community college, he'll be graduating college, and i'll be transfering to Cortland and he'll be doing god only knows what. i'm just gonna be so relieved to get to the city and start my damn life. i'm excited that it's gonna be tough and i'm gonna have to work my ass off, because it's allll worth it to me. i know i hate going to work as it is now, but i dont have a fucking badass apartment in NEW YORK CITY to pay for to motivate me. i'm gonna move down there in july or early august to look for a job and get settled. and just the idea of going to a school where i know NO one, in a city where i know no one except the person i live with, it's just awesome. i wouldn't want to go to college with anyone i graduate with, it's just not the same. even any of my friends, we just all need to be on our own for awhile so we have new things to talk about. i'm so fucking excited, i don't care how old it gets to hear me talking about it, i'm fucking ready to take on the world. and only 8 1/2 months left to go!