YES! im driving to syracuse in an hour to go pick brenda up from the airport! shes been in Cali for 3 weeks and i miss the fucking shit out of her. so i have to make this entry fast so i can shower and stuff. last night phil and i got into our first "fight." it was more of a misunderstanding, because i'm the only one that yelled. it was over whether or not we're going to be pursuing our relationship further with me going back to school next week and all... and it got blown out of proportion thanks to me. i have an extreme fear of losing people, and it makes my defense very high in discussions like that, because i try to appear tough and like "i dont care" what happens either way, but everyone knows i do because i can't act for shit. after sleeping on it, i realize that hes right, weve only been hanging out for 5 or 6 weeks, and theres no need to rush into anything, or talk about the future, because no ones if there will ever be a future with anything. i hope that we continue to have fun, and keep everything light-hearted, because the kid is awesome. thats all. :)