i think it's an end here. thanks for everyone who gave me the inspiration to write all of this. i thank you alll very much. but i think its time for a change. as everytime i see my early work, its time for a change.. and i've been dying for a change since the 5th from the bottom. so i'll change the spot where i'll be writting. if you want to check it out. go to blogger.com and search for my full name. christopher salonia and it's called the lay back lounge orrrr just head out this link n it'll take u there http://laybacklounge.blogspot.com/

There's not an ounce left of what there was and i caught you red handed, in your tracks you pause. Trail of mistakes lead to your way and still you'd ask me "can i stay?" My book's already being written and no space for you in it not unless i talk about the moment that i sank in your sandpit of a crossed out sign that used to say "lust" but with outlined word in red saying "love" A New chapter starts in me a new me, a new me to be a new guy to smile out of my face with everything being thought to be put into place If you're hearing me now there is, there is, there is no doubt. that Change has inflicted into ourselves all of what you knew, put into the corner of shelves that nobody ever looks at anymore. Follow a lead, take the leave Grasp what you want when you can have it just as a butterfly, it'll fly a way into someone else's hands if you're not quick enough to catch it.

Tell me whats worse to know that your going to die or not knowing when you´ll be called up? To me, Either sounds like a dead end. Moving at a speed that god can´t follow Thinking your a superman while your inside´s are hollow Fueling impressions to exceed their expectations instead, you might have lost them entirely while your on what you think is one of many vacations Metal is hard, but not hard enough only because the car´s a good brand doesn´t mean the driver ehind it has a perfectly-stilled hand Take What you have today and take it home tonight just make sure that you´ve made it clear that you´ll hold them tight. Because what you have today might not be there tomorrow Love Today, Hate Yesterday, Fear Tommorow´s sorrow Now you don´t know where you are with your head hunched in the deformed cockpit Being in the worst of luck no ejection seat to save what you did your the only one awake now and everyone left looking innocently asleep you think with no doubt they´re now for the heaven´s to keep angels now being called up to a jump thats too long to leap They´re call might be tomorrow, but most certainly today Come Whatever may The luck to see them wake up.

Sleeping in a bed with no sheets walking on the ground with no floor walking in through the out door it´s all things we´re not used to but are willingly worth to try Test the things that are supposedly safe test the things that are sure to not break down cause they´ll always be the ones that break from then until now Talking to the wall, that doesn´t bother to listen heeding to the sun that just preaches on how to truly glisten Point your finger to something that´s worth to blame because most to all who turn to criminalism turn into celebrities drowned into fame Adapt to the unnadaptable change even if you try, you won´t be able to how strange if you don´t, notice how much success you´ll achieve follow wherever your eyes take you because you´ll end up looking with curiosity so quit wasting your time staring and run away into the city Buy a one-way ticket to destiny and send your bottle into the sea of people just maybe, just maybe, you´ll be found by the one´s you´ll treasure most

if Friends were there would i really be waiting here? Aren't they suppose to scrape you off the ground when your on the floor without a sound? Its like you try to hold on but someone mistakenly soaped up the ledge and you can't help but to slip down the edge like under a dark sky with no stars just as lonely being by yourself in a car it's not what anybody should be in for and if I'm in for that again I'll just show myself out the door. and I'll let the ocean burn out the tragedies just as i let the stars light up the memories and just as that, i'll let the wind carry myself along the breeze. carrying me along... so I'm under suspicion tonight being fixed under your microscopic sight i guess i wasn't what everyone wanted so myself is trapped inside of me now which i would consider to be haunted. I'm dying to come out again but you fixed me so tight, it hurts to even be outside when it rains

Just as new friends come by it's always meeting the new and leaving the old with a goodbye and as new words form underneath my voice it wasn't my fault, this wasn't done by choice. it's not my fault, that the memories slide down the side of my mind that i don't look into very often all of this was once built to soften to ease the strain and now it's the cause of all the pain Was it my fault this is like that? I see your life is in two and you're really not sure what to do i see he is in the same position as me and i see he got off with a pardon, letting him flee, while i got the short end of the rope but atleast it was long enough to keep hope that you wouldn't have cut me down. just as you said once before "you were my first love, but not my last" thats how i knew it wouldn't last it wouldn't be much more then something in the past something we'd tell our kids to watch out for just watching out, so they don't go through what i went through before Love was a word taken out of context you say it like if it didn't mean anything while when i said, i meant it with everything how did it end up like this it was only a kiss was there something in this part of the movie that i missed? how will i recognize you from now on? as the girl who made me discover love or the girl who made me discover love never really existed at all.

She's being passed around like a ciggarette she thinks this is how she'll get his attention she's just dying for his attention she just wants him to look at her to just glance so maybe it'll turn from the broken to the wounded and advance advance from not talking, from not wanting from not needing... She'll have her boyfriends and he'll have his but they both still feel like this like it's tearing apart the pictures in their head but what keeps him thinking is if she has kept her promise To get his attention why don't you do what he always asked for you to do give him your attention or it'll break down worse then before end up, breaking up, breaking down wanting more Hold his hand,say you love him more then me but would i consider to know the truth? would i be wrong if i said, i know that you love me, and i love you and call it a silent truce?

I'm in for a history lesson and all i got was a note saying goodbye not much that i did, i didnt even try not much to do now, so i don't even try either the days get shorter, and the heat's a fever the air grows thin when i see you not even enough to give me a breather i'm out of things to do. I'm in for a math lesson and all i got was the division of you from i and then the subtraction of 2 hearts turnin from yours and mine, to only having mine. Last but not least,i'm in for a chemistry lesson i should have listened to my teacher when he said don't mix the two hearts, just set them on a table and let them grow instead. i was so eager, i didn't want to wait. i was just staring down in a trance-like state he said, patience will make it worth the while but i just wanted to be able to make a smile now.

the smell, smelled better before the battlefield, clear of war the taste, tasted way better then and now i want more. So it hasnt been the same and the smiles don't last but it'll someday get back to normal when i finally put before, into my past. why is it so hard to forget? i try to block it out , but it makes me think more of it and its the end result i get I remember when, i couldn't drop the smile always and never thinking about the what if to think about it now, my stomach drops and gets stiff Just coz of how good i once had it. i wish i could live back last year. i guess sunshine was my drug the people were the effects and the seasons were the sideeffects one to get you happy, one to get you high and one to crash on

When there's a reason to smash my car behind yours its not that i hated you, its that i secretly loved you Sideswiped or totaled, it was love. When there's a reason to curse you out, i'd do it infront of nobody when i'd have no reason to i'd do it infront of your friends, thats how bad i feel for you. i'd make myself look like the one who's doing the job of no sense when the fire's too out of control i'll remember to tell you to do what they taught us, stop drop and roll maybe i'll let the panic get in your head or i could give you the pill to swallow instead The panic, is the best part its where you'd do anything to be anywhere close to the very start because being in this situation is worse then being trapped in your arms.

somedays you can lose a friend somedays you can gain one just as good move on, just like anybody would just moving on like anybody would some days, its easier to remember but its the other days, that makes it all so hard to forget. it's a debt a debt, no man, poor or rich, can pay off. These are the days that we'll waste away we'll take all for granted and wait to live for tomorrow, just as you wanted these are the days that we'll wish to live again but look at the clock we'll never have the time to beat the train that'll take me straight to where i want to be.

I'm done its finished i'm tired of you not believing in me its not like you ever did but, i thought that maybe you would some day see (that i'm worth believing) the only reason we talk is to fight i'm immature but if you fight back doesn't it make you one too? if you think the word of someone else telling you what i say is stronger then MYSELF telling you then strap yourself to a ton of bricks and just fall 5 fucking floors down because this is all about honesty.. THIS is all about HONESTY and belief if you can't believe what i've ever said then don't believe that i ever said that i loved you i wasted those words it apparently seems on a girl who doesn't know right from wrong. I'm not happy to say that this isnt how i wanted it to be i'm not up to replanting hearts and watching them re-grow from a broken seed you've done too much and i don't want anything to do with it, you say i have to chill out when you annoy me past my limit things have changed i guess and it seems that its the end call me an asshole my friend because by tomorrow you'll never be thought to me as more then a girl filled with sorrow that tries to fill my lungs with iron so i drown to the bottom. your gone so re-read my last notes atleast TRY to hear my voice in your head as it will be the last time you'll ever hear it this time, i'll tell you flat out its your fault this time, no second chances its your fault when the time comes to find out who the closest ones to you just know you lost a big part of it so make yourself at home and sit i've got to tell you something before i leave i declare this war to be over both parties, gone separate ways out from each other, to have better days its over and the words we used as ammunition are finally out so declare the treaty and never talk to me again I hope your enjoying this last time i'll think about you in anyway i just can't really believe that the last thought that ever passes my mind is about how much more happierr i'll be leaving you behind

the odds of a person like me liking a person like you is 3000 to one and every thing i do everyone cricizes saying shes not my type but i just wanna break out of what they say and see what the fuck the hype is about. It feels like a year that ive first had an interest like the survival of the fittest you were the one i chose because i thought you'd the one that suits me best My friends still want to point a gun to my head saying, dude keep on dreaming go back to bed its alright, i'll keep on keeping on from dusk til dawn i'll hold that feeling. not to the one i love but to the one i like i'll still feel the same. the same for a while.

Dedicated to a Best friend... Remember to Hold On strongly not hard enough to make skin turn white just enough to know its tight You'll look into his eyes and think it's all going on the right track when really,he just hit the lights and then the room with both faded to black She'll hang on to every last moment together she'll talk about him as it seems her voice'll last forever Unpredictable and undecided He'll look back at everytime she cried and he'll know he was wrong but bad thing about being a guy is it'll take him time that seems to long to her to her.. A minute is a day in her book and just a look made her world shook and the hearts came crashing down just like stars bound to be bright fall to the ground... He will not forget What he's doing right now, in Time he'll Regret ever letting you go He'll Regret it is all i know He'll try to forget but will fail Letting go of a heart of yours that is way to frail My Friend, i'll listen to what you have to say even if listening will take all of my day i'll listen with my ears wide open and i promise by then.. you'll have a smile glistened below your eyes and i'll be there always... Lets just say, im the only one of their kind without wings...

Your mouth make out the last words but if i were you, i'd keep my mouth shut i'd keep my mouth shut Valentines day came up i'd keep following my religion to have faith til i find something close to perfection then i'd turn to you the savior of a boy, troubled by adolecense The problem is, in time ill realize your the devil in disguise and i'm the lamb you'll slaughter and the soul you'll alter. Please excuse me, while i go die out in the bathroom stall i fell for it, i fell for it all you'll keep playing me til marriage til you tell the press that i accidentally slipped out of the carriage i'll be there to soak up everything from today until tomorrow i was going to be there to pick up the sorrow from today until i hear the wedding bells i'll be put to my own private hell trying to dig myself out because, your kiss isn't a cure, its a disease.

Like Father, like son follow the footsteps of what your told and from the fears you have, never run you'll be breaking tradition. Worried of being different then the line you've followed not knowing if what your doing is right minded so hollow, minded so hollow the Ground is dragging me underneath don't think the sky would be so sympathetic any closer away from the ground i'm beneath and i'd be float up. I'm molded into a shape i can't possibly fit i look down and find a hole, my hand smeared with scarlet, i'm hit with wings i'll earn i'll teach of what i've failed and see the same ones learn they won't need to apologize for the redirection all i need is their satisfaction The walls cry to have your picture taken off because forgetting you in the first place was never enough the Windows close the shades in believing that crawling out of one would make me commit a sin

They'll be there til i'm gone they'll stay together while i come undone it feels like i've been standing for half an hour while i've been sitting all this time just with my life to waste and devour Facing the music, facing my friends how long until the spotlight ends? Face the front, crowds cower in with torches and stones I can't apologize, the chord to all pay phones have been slit to the core They'll critique everything i do and every girl i date they'll tell me whats wrong to like and whats right to hate my mind's encarcerated with their nicely put words "don't pick this one to love she'll do no good for you" was the last thing i heard. Facing my friends, they'll take away every last bit of hope they'll tear down the pictures for me while i try to cope with what i've already lost and more they'll burn it straight to the ground the promise to turn to ashes what was once your door the same one that leads me to you They said your filled with broken hearts under your belt they said, "what you feel, was what you once felt Not something you'll feel again" Facing my friends, they tell me your too good to be true that everything you say, your not that and everything you are capable to do you don't do anymore for me. My best friend said "things change" while i promised myself i'd glue this back together every time it falls apart he still says, "it's a change of heart" what if you have changed what you are and the thought i have of you was the one from here, not the one who lived too far the one i knew a while ago they say to me "shes not the same girl you used to know she grew up" Porcelain skin, with a pair of blue skies to fill the parts of your appearance lips of a beauty and a heart made for romance No wonder i haven't gotten over you.

As if your brown eyes weren't enough as if i didn't hear this before as if you ever thought this would never happen i proved you wrong. all thoughts just come out of my head now nothing beats without a doubt all thoughts just come out of my head now nothing beats without a doubt As if your smile wasn't enough As if me trying really didn't do a difference As if this would break down I'll prove wrong...once again. all thoughts just come out of my head now nothing beats without a doubt all thoughts just come out of my head now nothing beats without a doubt Still out of town, i left a message on your phone it said, "stay there where you are atleast your voice won't sound as good with static in the reception of the phone tone" all thoughts just come out of my head now nothing beats without a doubt all thoughts just come out of my head now nothing beats without a doubt

It's been a week and they both feel the same they're both on the floor of their rooms soaking up all the pain if only they knew they still felt the same only if... Back in school, his locker next to hers both wishing a crane just took each other's 5 blocks away Passing notes during class they didn't make the grade but they both intercepted each others notes each of them given alittle hope. Any chance of a get back? any chance any chance of a get back? they'd both appreciate they'd both appreciate it.

sorry to see it end and all and all, we all lost a friend follow up what you have to cover tell me what you've learnt and what i'll have to discover Seeking what we've wanted what we finally found everything that comes up, must come down We'll have time to get better even if takes 10 to 20 get well letters when it hurts the most its just the heart trying recooperate when you think nothin will help get a new heart, and operate If nothing leads up and i still stay up at night that means i'm losing a one on one fight against myself because i thought of you too much just a thought, could be a disease your love, could be the breeze and your yelling, could be an earthquake let me fall in, and dissapear Just because i thought of you too much