science is so gay... worst of all it makes no sense. And now, my parents (hows this for ironic) who are both SCIENCE MAJORS, are lecturing me about what im learning, what im not learning, my attitude towards science, and various other things that i really could care less about, like the history of pasturization.... i think i will die, this term, of boredom, although i am still alive and i have dealt with math with a passing grade. I wasnt even close to failing actually....although i really could have cared less if i had ended up with a 51. Its just so.......... school system like. anyway... -tine

i like teesdale...i really do :D:D

Its before 10 oclock in the morning...and i am awake. Whats wrong with me? lol. i have a cold and it sucks cuz its hard to breathe. oh well. im in a good mood...im having fun doing nothing. There is defenitely something wrong with me. I may be glowing. Maybe I'm delusional. Because i feel lazy...i dont think much will get done today. But thats ok, because there ISNT anything to do. nothing at all...and obviously studying for math is not an option. Talk about over prepared. Man....AP sucks...except maybe art, id have liked to apply but i didnt think i was good enough to get in, so i didnt bother putting together a portfolio...stupid of me really. Nour is back from Sudan now, shes in Saudi Arabia, but she cant come for spring break OR the summer, so i wont see her until grade 12, AFTER i turn 17. Its strange to think about...that ive already gone more than 6 months without her, and i cant imagine waiting another year or more, but i have to anyway, so it doesnt seem so bad at the same time. It sucks though, but she does want to go to Sudan in the summer...and she has family there, so I dont see why she should come and see me when all her aunts are getting married. That would just be selfish of me. I'm glad we're off until the 1st...although im not because i have two exams still, and basketball practice...it sucks but at least i wont be HUGE hahah when term 3 starts, Good times. So....people....who dont bother reading this....how was your week? -tine

so we have exams starting thursday, and let me say i am glad because well...I HAVE NO SCHOOL!!!!! And that means i can do whatever and be coool like that. I havent been doing much lately...mainly catching up on sleep for the last 3 months that i have missed. lol. Yes, i go to bed at 9, wake up at noon or so...its the life. i love bee. -tine

well...theres a new girl looking at leasing Zeppy...so...i wont be able to ride him, or at least not very much at all... sucks... love, tine

Its almost the end of holidays..as in...i have 2 days. including today...which means...today is almost over...which means...there really is only one. And im going to finally go riding tomorrow :D:D:D:D I love riding...but im sad because they sold pony and now shes gone. :( :( :( Theres alwyas Zeppy though. And Tika once shes sane again and doesnt run at jumps like a crzy horse...yeah...and talo, maybe, but hes so big...and REALLY big...and massive. Also he bucks and jumps at really funny distances, so there isnt really anyone good/and/or/safe for me to ride besides Zep. I miss pony. love, TINE

So... yesterday night we rang in the New Year drinking gingerale and eating chocolate and veggies and dip. It was just me, brady, and my parents, and i wouldnt really have it any other way. It's 2006. And i dont feel any different. Sorry. I dont know if im supposed to or not. I mean, ive gotta make a lot of decisions in the coming year, which doesnt feel particularly pleasant, but right now ive got everything that i want to have. Everyone's so bent...on...everything. How things should be...and frankly, i think i forgot to care about other people's opinions. Not that i dont, sometimes, because i do, and if i said i didnt, id be lying... And suddenly i cant wait for summer. Ive got a taste of a break, and i think its going to be difficult for me to go back to doing work every day. It seems i have endless things to say on this sitdiary, but when i go to write my essays i get about a paragraph a day, IF i concentrate. It's really all about what you WANT and what you HAVE TO do. And...sometimes i dont have anything that fits into either of those catagories. Interesting. well...love and all that. -TINE

Christmas was pretty sweet...yeeeah. I think it was awesome. And...thats repeating myself. I got all types of cosmetics and it was sweet. Lip shine, fragrances...all that...and my family isnt home yet either, so we'll see what i gte from them, and if they like their presents... Anyway, here are some pics... -TINE

im wrapping up my christmas presents... And ill see if i can put up the tree :D:D:D I love christmas. -TINE

Ive always thought that "feeling blue" was the coolest expression for an emotion becuase it was a colour...and thats cool...i love art. Im not actually feeling blue though. I went shopping today and got a lot of stuff done. Got gifts for alomst everybody now...just need mum and maybe dad or a book for trevor. Got these super cool Lululemon shorts and they fit SO well. I love them. They go with my shirt too, but they were less expensive...score. And sports bras, because i needed them...cuz i didnt have any that fit me. :D...well im all set... We've got a christmas concert for school this sunday. It makes me feel a little weird not doing anything church like on sundays...but for the last couple of years we havent been going..and this year ive been out at the barn riding every sunday. I dunno...its not becuase i dont like church...we're just so busy, and always late anyway...and trying to find...well we used to try and find a good one. But yeah...sometimes on sundays i feel like i should be somewhere else... Im getting more and more excited for christmas...I think im gonna put up a christmas back ground...yeah...and change it back to steve nash after...or maybe just change it according to what's going on...cool. night. -TINE

Allriiiiight. So my week is going so so. There is nothing particularly special about it. Spares are not that special. We are indredibly restricted...and after my spare i dont really feel like going back to class and doing things on other people's time limits. I'm really convinced that education is some sort of a ploy. It's really not run very well. It's too serious, or not serious enough at times...and you just cant learn very well in the current conditions. I eat a lot of candy. I do not like it. no. But it tastes good. I need to do homework...i am woman...i am motivated....yeah riiight. Ok...ttyl -TINE She said I might not be seeing him soon... There's a few things ive been waiting to do...

Well we're 1 for 2 in the exhibition round...thats allright...i thought we'd do ok, but maybe not that well...and lol we broke 50 in the first games...thats cool. Wisewood went down, but Scarlett took us to school a bit. We couldve caught that game if we'd had more agression and helpside on defense. Everybody played well overall....the ref said i played excellent defense...downside...i fouled out of the second game...not because i was playing dirty, but because i made a couple of mistakes. And 5 mistakes arent alot anyway...not when you're playing basketball...i mean, its a game of execution and mistakes. I got Number 13!!! yes, well i wouldve had killed anyone who tried to take it anyway...but its a large so i look kinda gangsta in it....haha. I wish i was big so i could get inside the key more, but personally...i like playing the point and especially shooting guard just fiiine. I'm getting in good shape...we run an average of 60 lines per practice, especially on fridays because we get the weekend off...so they run us hard for an hour and then let us go...btu i try and run on the weekend anyway...its all good... Well, yeah, math is gay as usual...but its just so fricken boring...jeez, id die if i had to do it for more than half a year, let alone teach it... And just because im not writing doesnt mean im not learning...i wish people could understand that....the only reason i dont choose to spend my time in the office is because it will go on my record...other than that, id rather be sitting in the gay office than in a gay math class.... screw school. love, -TINE

Just got back from the last tryout....dun dun dun.... If i make the team it will be posted tomorrow. :D :D...put on my lucky socks...lol. Oh whatever. Yay Beave. love, -TINE

A couple days and Ill know if i get to wear that warm up jersey....awww yeah. Hope i make it....that would be cool and all...wearing the black and white for Beave. But...thats if i make it. yes. ok, well im tired and as usual, my shoulders hurt....but i feel better :D -TINE

My pony is going to LA...and i dont want her to. But basketball tryouts are starting tomorrow...and i hope i make it. There weren't that many people at the meeting, so ive got good chances. And Mr.Bolinger seems to know who i am....weird. PLayoffs are hectic...we lost the first game, so if we lose the second we're out, and if not we have another game for bronze. German's going on a fieldtrip to a restaurant...should be interesting. Band is coming along, we got new jazz music, and im pretty sure everybody sucks at reading it. lol. Lux Aeterna in concert band is sweet...i can play most of it now...its an awesome i dunno...melody. Its catchy. Sweet...ok, enough of being a band geek. Music is music and i love it. 34 days until the 24th of december. :) love, TINE

hey hey... Things are looking war like on the home front. But not my home front...Bee's homefront. Wish i could do something, but as much as some of it concerns me, its not my business. Nothings my business lately. And it seems ive been involved anyway... Oh dear. I'm sorry everyone. -TINE

Hey... ok. Lots to say. Guess you could call them opinions. For one thing, i dont make anyone's decisions for them. I dont think it matters too much what people say about other people, even when they aren't there and even when you only talk to them in school. I mean, its easier to blame other people than to blame yourself, and if you were entirely truthful in the first place, what other people say and what other people think shouldnt matter all that much, should it? Thats allright then. No one was telling anyone what to think (im speaking completely generally of course). And if things got stirred up, im not holding myself or brady responsible. It's not our issue, nothing was invaded...and we happen to care about what happens to him in the long run. Sometimes things just dont work out. And maybe they do. And maybe forcing people to change isnt something that should be done...and really ive seen a lot of people playing with other people's hearts, and it tears me up because its...very unfair. I wish everyone would just be honest in the first place - then the blame wouldnt lie anywhere. -TINE

soooo I havent updated in forever, but thats ok, because ive been busy, so yeah. Next week(end) mind you, is Vic Lewis. That means im...going to have A LOT of fun. Only a band person could appreciate having fun at a music festival. Friday night all we do is check in, have supper and then go to a programme sponsored dance. Then...Saturday all day basically is a performance day, and Sunday we have clinics and then go home. The Monday after that we have the day off. Which means that on monday i can dye my hair blonde agan...Yaaaaay. Maybe this time it wont go some weird coloured red...then again, maybe it will and a month later ill be forced to dye it darker instead. Brady says id look good with darker(really) hair. maaaybe. Id like to try. Another week another task. -TINE

alllright. I know i havent updated in awhile...but.. IM SO EXCITED FOR HALLOWEEN ITS AMAZING!!! Yeah. And i think im transferring out of my math class...hooray!!! That means i wont get like...-495849589 %. Im excited for everything thats coming up...Halloween, Vic Lewis, Christmas...yeah.. I love you!!! -TINE

I have an 88 average!! YAY! coudl be better... could be worse... Its all good. Volleyball is progressing...so is basketball as far as i can tell. Good times. tty all later. -TINE