So. I feel like I need to write something, but I'm not sure what to write. I'm still totally torn up about C, the last guy in the last entry descriptions. I cannot bring myself to get over him- I don't think I ever will. I don't WANT to get over him. I just want HIM. I need to talk to him face-to-face. I think it's been a month today.. but I could be wrong. Nope- just checked the calendar- I'm totally right. OK. Happier thoughts. College = amazing. I am so happy to be here. I really think it's just what I need right now. It couldn't have come at a better time. I miss everyone, sure, but I think it's made me realize who really matters to me. Like, the people I miss a lot that I didn't think I would. Like R, for example. It makes me think a lot about who I want to keep in touch with. Who I want to see on school breaks. What I want to say to those people while I still can, before we're out in the real world and it may be too late. Wow. I feel like this whole entry is so.... poised, I guess. Like I feel like I'm supposed to be saying a lot of this. Except for that last paragraph- that was kind of real. Dammit, I need to stop sensoring myself. It's not like anyone here knows me anyways, so why do I still do it? Maybe I'm afraid of what I really have to say. Maybe I'm doing this for my own benefit. Writing, but only to a certain extent. The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.. that's my goal I'd like to reach through this. The truth of me, to me, for me and no one else. We'll have to see how that one goes.