Feeling: flabbergasted
Ok. R, from previous entries (including the last one)...
informed me on Friday night that he likes me again.
I am flabbergasted.
I have no idea what I feel
There are a million and seven and a half reasons why this would not work out:
-When we dated sophomore year of highschool, it was a mess and basically was horrible
-He's a controlling kind of boyfriend
-He gets very attached and clingy very easily
-He's at college 3 1/2 hours away from mine
-He has a girlfriend at his college
-I think he may just THINK he likes me, but just misses having me around as a friend and is confused
-I also think he just views me as "safe"
-There is a possibility that he wants to have sex..which I don't
-I don't even know if I like him or just the IDEA of him
-It would be insanely hard to manage
-It would kill all chances I have of getting back with C at some point, which is still completely up in the air
-It might hinder me getting to know more people at my school because I'm tied down to him and he's far away
-I sort of want to date someone at my school or around my school so I can actually see them and have a stronger relationship
-We both just got out of over-a-year relationships since this summer and are probably really vulnerable and reboundish..at least I think I might be
-All my friends would be extremely disappointed in me for going back out with him
-My family doesn't know we ever dated but they do know he used to like me, and Mom is convinced he has all along, but they're very wary of him and don't really approve..
However.. there are a few positives:
-He has changed.
-I sort of know what to expect, so I wouldn't be caught very offguard with anything, which is safe but in a good way
-I always wondered what would happen if we ever got back together or if he ever liked me again. Now I have the chance to find out.
-I really kind of want to kiss him.
PS- He's coming here on Friday for the day/night to hang out since he's home for the weekend.
I have absolutely NO idea what to do or what is going to happen.
I'm actually scared.
Thinking about it makes me so nervous I get sick to my stomach. How am I going to handle this??...
Please leave me some advice!...
- He has not changed
- You already said he was a bad boyfriend so if you expect it, why get into it?
- If you get back together it will be exactly the same
- The physical 'want' of kissing him is not more important that your emotional needs... which he sounds like he can not fulfill.
That's just my opinion, however.