Okay, so last night I called my friend who I haven't seen in a way long time and asked him what he was up to, and he said he was heading to an AA meeting and then asked me if I wanted to go, so I said of course and drove from pasadena (where my family lives [I was at a family get together]) to costa mesa where the meeting was. So I walk in and it was all guys. So I had like 40 guys staring me up and down for like an hour and a half (ps I've had a crush on this giy for almost a year) so after the meeting we go outside to our cars and he asks me for a hug cuz its been like a month. And then we talked for like 5 secs and he asked me for another one, and it was a long one, and this car that drove by honked and whistled at us, so after the meeting we went back to his house (he lives ina frat type house) and sat on the porch because there was couches and if I went inside the house it would be the same as the meeting, guys staring at me and making comments, so he sat on one of thw couches and I sat across from him so I could see him while we talked, and I put my legs on him so I could recline (ps we're like bff's so its totally unsexual on both parts) so we're just chilling there and I met some of his roommates and we talked, and then we decided to go get some coffee, and it was way cold by the time we got back so he ran inside and got a blanket so we'd be warm, and we did the same as before, I put my legs on him, and then he started rubbing my legs and stuff, in a non friends kinda way, and then it got really cold, and I was shaking so he told me to come sit next to him so I'd be warmer, so I did, and he picked my legs up and laid them across his again and we both got under the blanket, and I started to get tired so I put my head on his shoulder so I could rest, and then he laid his cheek on my head and told me my hair smelled pretty and all that stuff, and then hunder the blanket he grabbed my hand and we held hands for a while and he was saying how some people have been judgemental of him lately and it hurts him, so I told him that he shouldn't care what people think and he said "that's why I like being with you, because when I am I don't care about what anyone thinks" And when he said that I almost like totally started crying, and I was blushing way bad, and it was like 1 in the morning by this time and we were just laying there, and he was playing with my hair, and then he reached his other arm around and put it on my waist and I started to fall asleep, and then I woke up like an hour later and told him that I had to go cuz it was like 2 30 and it was cold, so we got up from the reclined position, and he grabbed my hand and kissed it, and then he leaned over and kissed my cheek, and started playing with my hair again and I was blushing like way bad, so then he got up and walked me to my car and gave me a hug goodye and started playing with my hair again, and then I got in my car and he bent down and kissed me on the forehead and then I left. It was seriously like the most perfect night ever.

soooooooo its been forever since i've used this thing. and i feel really bad so i think im goin to start posting more in it. ps. virginia sucks.

okay wow seriously, last week was the week from HELL. it all started off on monday, when i got in my car and it wouldnt start, so i had to take it over to my crazy car repair guy and get charged like 100 bucks for him to plug something in, then i got my ass handed to me on a silver platter by my ex boyfriend who decided that he didnt want me to play in a band full of all guys, and when i refused to quit, he decided to hit, THEN i was kept up all night on monday due to a 103.5 fever, i managed to accquire the rarest strain of the flu in exhistance, and suffered through it like a champ until wednesday, when my ex came back and wanted to "apologize" aka hit me again. then i talked to Brian the love of my life, and i was happy again all the way until friday, when i went to my mailbox and discovered that my ex boyfriend cut out his tattoo on his arm and put it in my mailbox and mailed it to me. pretty fucking sick, at this point i decided to call the cops, so i did. then on sunday, i hear about how my drummer wants to "quit the band" because he doesnt have time to play in a band, and then on myspace i discover ads that he placed dating back to the previous monday searching for a new bassist. pretty fucking shady if you ask me. thats the end of my story about the week from hell. <3Kelly

so yeah, i dont really use this much anymore... which is kinda sad. oh well, i'll use it now.... so yeah... i started up a new band, we play out in West Covina, we gotta show on the 25th of March i think... i'm going to taste of chaos, my clothing company is getting a booth on warped tour this year, so i get to do that whole bit again, uhm.... i got a tattoo, won some money in the superbowl, getting my car back on friday, thats about it.... hmm... yeah... i think i'll start updating this a lot more. loveKEL

i like my new school... the people here are loud but nice... and things are going great. i started up a new project... hopefully things will go well with it. New Years at SOMA is going to be amazing... As I Lay Dying, Atreyu, Bleeding Through, Terror, Throwdown, Underminded, My American Heart, Before Today and Yesterday's Rising... wow. loveKEL

so yeah, nothing to terribly new... i never update this thing anymore since i got a myspace... maybe i should take some time out for SIT too.

todays my anniversary for SIT, haha... its too bad that it didnt quiet last a year... oh well. long live myspace. http://profiles.myspace.com/users/5634011

i just made my myspace, finally. so i dont know how much i'll be using this now.... in case you wanna come share some love with me on myspace, my link is: http://profiles.myspace.com/users/5634011. give me a visit. loveKEL

grayson ended up coming over last night and spending the night, so that was fun. him and shaughnessy were up late, and i crashed at like 3. we went over to ericas at like... 12 30 adn stayed there for about an hour, thats about the highlight of my night, pretty boring for the most part. loveKEL

ok, so im home alone right... and you would think that i would do something fun, but i cant cuz no one else can do anything and its really starting to bug the crap out of me. today travis and i hung out all day, because both of us were bored and had nothing better to do, and then his little brother austin came and chilled with us too, and now its now and im bored. loveKEL

wow. the show tonight was awesome, Remembering Never was my highlight. The singer from Remembering Never had a guy kicked out of the show becuase he punched their merch guy in the face and he was white power, it was pretty fucking sweet to see that there are decent fucking people out there. Then after RN played i went to get some merch, i was talking to the singer at the merch table and he said that they all wanted to go chill and party some where, so i suggested bowling, i was invited, but i said no. i had other things to do. so then i got home and called travis, he chilled at my place for a while and then we woke up shaughnessy and he came out and chilled too. but i havnt even gotten to AILD, they were sooo amazingly good. im soo excited/ happy that i got to see them again. they played forever for their last song, it was incredible. i love them, i cant wait to see them again. loveKEL

i get to go see: remembering never, himsa, as i lay dying and shadows fall tonight. its gonna rock ass, except himsa. himsa = shit. i cant wait, i get my TRUUUUUCK for the night too, so im gonna be cruisin around all ghetto pimp style, fuck ya! so yes. if youre going to AILD i hope to see you there. loveKEL

so yeah. its been like a week. bleeding through was awesome, until they messed up on on wings of lead and then tried to play it again and then some kid had a seizure. that was interested, and ian being everyones hero went over and did the whole "im first aid certified" and helped the kid out, what a nice guy. on the other hand, brandon was all pissed off and acted like an ass, which isnt out of character. mandy moore was there too, it was kinda funny. other than that nothing is happening. im going out to visit my sister on saturday..... she's at camp for 3 weeks. i feel like the luckiest person alive. loveKEL <3

i just got off the phone with shaughnessy. he calls every night at 1, i have no clue why. nothing too interesting happens, except for the fact that im feuding with one of my friends, which always seems to be happening. im holding audition for a cast of new friends, the only requirement is that youre not an asshole. loveKEL

im done with any and all my friends. bucky has the right fucking idea. to all of you who say youre my friends, and then go treat me like shit and not think twice about it, youre nothing. nothing to me, and nothing to life. loveKEL

5th time seeing napoleon. yes. you guys should all go see the movie too so you wont be freakin idiots. loveKEL

anything that was said in the past 2 days wasnt me..... i havnt even been on a computer in the past 2 days. so if someone said anything to you off of my name, it wasnt me. that goes for all and any diary entries as well. loveKEL

snuck out last night, chilled with the guys of abrb, its pretty rad that they live in my complex. thats about it.... loveKEL ps. allie, if you have anything left to say to me, stop being such a pansy and say it to my face... oh yea thats right. youre too scared. just remember that i have no issue with fucking you up at all, so you better watch yourself.

haha. people are stupid. thats about all i have to say. loveKEL

it was hot today, so all i did was sit and sweat and i talked to hermy (my crab) for a while. he's a good listener. loveKEL