ok, i have everything that i want and im still upset. im in a band, my family is healthy, im doing good in school, my friends are being cool. i tought that being in a band again would make things happier for me. they didnt. i feel as if nothing that i do in the band is appreciated, and the guys are great, but they make me feel like shit and like i shouldnt even waste my time. its a big conflict all the time, its like a damn mexican soap opera, tons of drama and you dont understand any of it. as of right now, i want out. unless someone can seriously change my mind, theres to much stress for it to be worth it. i dont get credit for anything that i do, and it hurts. especially since i love everyone in the band so much. it really sucks. as of now, im not in the band. we'll see the group reaction on monday.