this has seriously been the worst month of my exhistance. getting kicked out of the band was bad, but that wasnt why im upset, and as for people saying that im not musical when they cant play shit on their instrument themselves, thats bullshit. so far in a period of a month my perspectives of everything has changed, the people who i once thought i could trust i now no longer trust, and the people who i thought were family now mean nothing to me. it hurts when people laugh at your pain, which is exactly what everyone seemed to be doing last week. people really suck, and on top of that.... my brother is in the hospital dying from AIDS, and he contracted severe pneumonia.. so i dont even know how much longer my best friend has left to live. when will this all end.