so i just wrote a long ass entry.. very meaningful.. then it todl me i had to sign in.. so id id then it didn't save it!! ahh the site plays with my head! i hate that! so lately i've been sittin around doing nothing at home or being in shelby at the Soulbind practices... or working weee! it's nice tho to just sit back and do nothing once again! Well tonight i went out to the V.I.P to see the boys play.. Soulbind... and i had to go out there by myself.. which i found out is better! and hung out with ellisha and all them.. which is cool! havn't seen them in a while! the thing that sucks is... i had to be home at midnight.. and they played at 1140 or midnight.. and so i didn't get to see them! but it's cool... it was fun time! and mom told me i had to have someoen walk me out to my car.. cuz its mansfield and ppl been killed there she says.. so i had Danny my ex take me out there.. hah.. mom don't like him much.. but yea me and my friend kristen have noticed lately... i have been so much nicer and happier all together since i have been talkin to Danny lately... not "talking" but just talkin more.. tellin how we feel.. it's weird! but i still love him... and he knows it.. and i miss him like hell! and he knows it... but he hides his feelings from me.. and i want to kno them! cuz when he took me out to my car we huggeed for a long time cuz i wanted a real hug* and i said i miss you to him.. and he just was liek aww and squeezed me harder.. and i could feel he did too... but he wouldn't say it! and i was just talkin to him and he said, " it made me wordless.. cuz u said it like when we was together". so yea of course i told him i wouldn't do it agian if he didnt want me to.. adn he just said err.. and i said well i can't tell if u want me to.. adn he said thats the point adn i'm not suppost to be able to know.. so yea.. I just wish he'd tell me he needed me.. but is that what i really want? cuz i think it would make me fall again... harder.. and i htink he knows that.. and he knows we can't happen.. and he don't want ot hurt me again! i dont know really... i mean who don't want to be told they are loved and wanted by someone they love?! and i'm sorry if this entry hurts you... you know who u r... you are considered a good friend to me.. and i know how u feel about him too! and i'm sorry u had to get hurt!! we both just happened to fall in love with someone who wont leave your heart... ever! i'm sorry!! to anyone who is in love right now with someone u can't have or out of ur reach... i feel ya.. and i'll pray for your soul! heh i'm out of this.. hopefully htis one works.. lol! im sick of it... if anyone wants to talk to me... cuz im really that bored... my AIm is sdangelgrl and so is my yahoo!! -Sar Sar*