Ok...so life's been ok lately. Nothing really has changed. Friday...worked. Saturday...worked. Sunday...went on a Day of Renewal with ACTION Youth Group. It was pretty fun. Got to hang out with a bunch of fun peeps. Listened to some ABBA music and just took in the beauty of nature at Locust Lake. OH...and learned how to play The Cup Game. I had too much fun for one day. Monday...well today...went to Marian to paint, which I really didn't get to do. And what I did looks like crap. I knew I shouldn't have changed it. You're such a jerk Jared!!! Talking to Chad and Jared for like an hour was AWESOME!!! Chad is like one of the funniest people out there. But not funnier than Tim Tim!!! Then had an eye doctors appointment...which was stupid. What he told me I knew...my eyes changed yet again...I'm gonna be BLIND soon (that's my opinion)...and I need new contacts. Well DUUHHH!!!! The good news I'm getting new glasses...hope they look better than the once I have. Then went to work...which wasn't bad...until like 15 minutes before closing. I went to help straighten redline, looked over to see how messed up the underwear were and found like 20 on the floor. I was sooooo pissed. I GREATLY dislike straightening the underwear...it takes FOREVER!!! Anyways...After the Day of Renewal...I've been thinking. This is what I've been thinking about...people are way too obsessive and aren't really enjoying life. People...including myself...need to just relax and enjoy everything God has given us. We have life, that should be good enough. Whatever happens, happens. Everything is pretty much mapped out. Oh...and if something is bothering you, do something about it. Which I'm gonna start right now. I've been holding so much back and I feel like I'm going to EXPLODE!!! So here it goes... I love my friends...they mean the world to me. But lately I don't know what's going on with a couple of them. One is like not talking to ANYONE...not even his girlfriend. The other just stopped talking to me for some odd reason...a little confused about that one. Another isn't really talking to me anymore. And one...the one that usually pisses me off...isn't pissing me off. We're actually having fun when we hang out and I'm not like flipping out at him every minute of every day. I'm not sure what's going on with the first friend. It's kinda worrying me. I don't think I've ever gone this long with out at least a "Ello' sup?" I know people have they're bad days but this seems to be a bad couple of weeks...maybe even a month. He's always the one I can count on to make me laugh when I'm feeling down and he ALWAYS knows how to calm me down when I'm pissed. And lately he's been kind of an ass. He's definitely not the lovable, joking guy that's I know and love to hang out with. There was a time...and it's still wonders into my thoughts...when I seriously was like...should I say something and lose a GREAT friend or say nothing at all and feel like shit... :'-( The next friend...I'm kinda not to concerned about. She doesn't seem to concerened about anything but herself. I haven't really been thinking about this friendship. I know that sounds bad but every relationship is a two-way street...NOT one. I'm sick of the one ALWAYS worrying. I felt kinda used by this friend anyways...and I GREATLY dislike being used. The third friend...I have NO idea what's going on. I'm not sure if he's just kinda avoiding me because of another friend. But it kinda hurts to think that that's the reason why. I had to go through this last summer...I really don't want to go through it again. To all my friends...I'm going to have friends that you don't like and you are going to have friends that I don't like. GET OVER IT!!! I'm sick of getting pulled in twenty different directions. The last friend...there's nothing really to say except that...for once in this weird friendship of ours...he's NOT pissing me off. It's really weird...the one I thought NEVER would kinda is...and the one that always does isn't. Life is really upside down right now. NOt sure which way to turn. Anyways...it's getting late...so I'm heading to bed... Nighty night y'all...sweet dreams... ((hugs)) ~*K*~ 3 more days til BSB concert...can't fricken WAIT!!!...at least I have something good to look forward to in my life...these boys NEVER disappoint me... :-D