Ok...so here's the continuation from last nights journal entry. Let's continue with one more friend.
I've only known this friend for a little over a year but he's really fun to hang out with. He might like to piss me off A LOT but lately he hasn't been. He's kinda changed since going to Europe for a couple of weeks. I don't know. Anyways...I'm going to miss him when he moves to Lancaster. Instead of being an hour away, I'll be like 3. He was always the one I could count on if I wanted to go out after work. I'm going to miss that. I know he's going to be home alot on weekends but I'll have work and that takes up alot of my time. I hope he's happy with his decision and I'm not going to be one of the people that are like "ARE YOU NUTS?!?! It's your senior year!" If this is what he wants I'm not going to stop him. He just better keep in touch. :-P OH, and I WILL be coming down to go shopping in the outlets...hehe...
Ok...on to family...There's nothing really going on in my family but sometimes I feel like just because I'm...me...and that I'm really independent and confident that I have to be..."PERFECT"? I hate that feeling. I'm a normal 19 year old female. I make mistakes. I have bad day, I have A LOT of them. I'm not always confident. Things get on my nervse ALL the time. I hate the fact that I get yelled at for having an opinion and for speaking it. Also I HATE how everything I seem to do is wrong and that my little cousins do almost everything right. It just gets me mad and upset. I hate having to be "perfect" all the time. I don't like being "perfect". To me there is no such thing as "perfect." I sometimes feel like I should have chosen a school farther away, like NYU or Univerisy of Sciences in Philly. I love my family to death and I wouldn't change them for all the money in the world. But I feel at times they expect too much from little old me... :-(
Finally...lets talk about school. I can't WAIT to go back and see my friends. Miseri is a good school...boring at times but still fun. It's really small...which I like. All my classes have less then 30 students in it so the professers know who you are. You're not just a number...you're a person, an actual human being. Life's been a little boring since I've been home for summer vay-cay. I've been working and that's about it. I know that when I go back to school my weekends are going to be shot because I'll be working but my weeks should be fun.
Whelp...that's it for now!
((hugs))
~*K*~