yeah thats right i've added livejournal to my fledgling empire of websites about me... and i'll prob use it now instead of this one... woo! http://thattallguy10.livejournal.com/

I went and saw switchfoot live in auckland the night before last and it was AWESOME! yeah that is all

Check out TV3 news coverage of the NZ mens volley team (spot me a few times... and my shoes!) here

Ok so I should probably write something here about India. It was freaking awesome. Even though we didn't win a single game we played really well (and considering we were up against professional players this was no mean feat). We also had a chance to look around Kolkata which was good, visited some places like Mother Teresas tomb and orphanage and also an Indian temple to the Goddess Kali. Seeing the place made me realise just how lucky we are back home. Ie we where staying in an uber flash hotel and right outside there where people living on the pavement and we couldn't leave the hotel compound anywhere without a team of 7 armed policemen. Just crazy. Edit: I almost forgot to mention how awesome the indian people are as sports fans, i must have signed hundreds of autographs for kids during the tournament and shaken many more hands. My ego will never be the same again =P I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain is there healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm still holding I'm holdin' on, I'm still holding I'm barely holdin' on to you

so with 24 hours before i finally leave for India (and just 6 till i leave for Auckland) i finally got insanely excited. Up untill now i'd beena bit ho-hum bout the whole thing but now i'm pretty pumped. oh well i really should get some sleep and i'm sure i'll write something about it all when i return. So I believe you, with eyes open wide it seems impossible not to When I received you a child had died, but a better man was begotten So help me to see continually this prodigal grace abounding me!

sigh i hate it that i never seem to know what to say. like today a friend of mine mine came up to me crying and i had absolutely no idea what to say or do. Its like my mind went completely blank, i mean i wanted to help them but i couldn't figure out how. And its not even situations like that but just in general social interaction where i just never know how to act an so end up standing around feeling stupid. Its only really with a close group of friend that i feel comfortable... anywhere else i seem to be a perpetual outsider. Its so frustrating. Oh well i guess we are who we are. I want to know. How to get through this? Without choking up I want to know. How to get through this? Without choking up I can't feel you You're so far from me

How long have I been in this storm? So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form Water's getting harder to tread With these waves crashing over my head If I could just see you Everything would be all right If I could see you This darkness would turn to light And I will walk on water And you will catch me if I fall And I will get lost into your eyes And everything will be all right And everything will be all right I know you didn't bring me out here to drown So why am I ten feet under and upside down Barely surviving has become my purpose Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface If I could just see you Everything would be all right If I could see you This darkness would turn to light And I will walk on water And you will catch me if I fall And I will get lost into your eyes And everything will be all right And everything will be all right

So the world has gone mad again, or maybe its just the fact that i had a look at the weeks coming up and suddenly all my free time has been gobbled up. uni is about to start again, i have tournaments this and next weekend, and trainings all but one week evening, and i need to work at some-stage, and then i'm off to india, only to return and have to catch up on all my uni work all the while preparing for nationals. Is it just me that needs large amounts of time completely removed from all other human contact in order to maintain some semblance of sanity? cause for the next couple of months it looks like i'm not going to get it... so watch out! I’m in way too deep again I’ve forgotten how to swim I can’t tell which way is up or down Save me before I drown down here

So a lot of stuff has been happening this past coupla days, First off grandma died on Friday which was pretty sad, although I didn't really know her all that well (which is also pretty sad). So we all headed up to Wellington for the funeral. The funeral was nice, although I really hate watching people I care about upset, for some reason it just really gets to me. It was good to be able to see all the random people I know in Wellington though. Got home and got an email saying I made the NZ mens team to travel to the commonwealth cup in India! (although I am less excited about that than you might think cause it means I have to train every week with the new coach, who is one of those negative/angry/psycoticish type coaches) But still it should be a sweet trip, I mean how often in your life do you get to go to India? And now I have to get focused on study for my exams next week, cause if I don't I'm pretty much guaranteed to fail. But I really cant bring myself to care. And if you could hold your tongue long enough You'd see that all I am is love but I don't like me. I despise me.

gar stupid bloody exams... just finished 2 weeks of madness.. and it seems like all the exams that dont really matter all that well went great and all the ones that do matter didnt... On the up side its nearly two weeks till the next one... Cocktail party last night was pretty cool although i had to drive so i couldnt partake of said cocktails... but i got to wear my tie so its not all bad and now this week coming up is completely devoid of anything that i have to do...hurrah So say goodbye 'cause you'll be leaving soon I know its's hard, and I'll be missing you I know its time to say goodbye And I know we'll meet again, but I wish It'd never end You don't mean to make me cry But it's so hard to say goodbye

It seems as if I've suddenly gotten insanely busy. Its probably not true but it feels that way. I've got 3 exams and a project due in the next 2 weeks as well as volleyball, volleyball tournaments and work and other stuff. I had a dream last week which could have been interpreted to be a warning not to over extend myself. and it looks to be coming true... on the other hand it could just be my extraordinarily poor time management skills and the huge amount of sleep that i need. mmmmmm sleep

wow it has been pointed out to me that this page has been horribly neglected and is thus very sad. So i thought i should write in it to try and cheer it up a bit. *joy* uh anyway i'm looking forward to wellington on thursday, it promises to be full of fun and excitement. umm man i suck at this dairy thing. errr lots of stuff has happened in the past 3 months: i've been on holiday, i've been tramping, i've been injured, i've become a christian, i've realised i have no idea what i want to do with my life, i've laughed, i've cried, worked and slept and now i've run out of stuff to say

Had awesome fun times last night at the costume party for teresa's birthday. And best yet there was a guy there who was taller than me!!! it was brilliant =D

Much has happened recently, and none of it has been written here so here goes. Went to Samoa, played volleyball, it was awesome came home, went to work zeb left (sob) got my full drivers license (yay) and thats about all except for being depressed for all of the time after Samoa, for no apparent reason. but i guess thats life and as james bond said: you only live twice

Hurrah! I've made it to the end of our training camp more or less in good shape (although my knees, shoulder and back tend to dissagree) Now i just have to make it through the team function tomorrow and survive with sanity (relatively) intact the various lectures by importent people about being good over there (i'm sure its more interesting than that but anyways) and then on sunday morning its onto a plane and off to Samoa!! Hotness!! (in fact roughly 32 degrees of hotness on average =P) I'm very excited

been up here training for three days now. Has been pretty good so far but just starting to get a little bit sick of it (and quite a bit sore) but oh well, just gotta survive four more days and its off to Samoa! =D Starting to miss christchurch a little, both the place and more importently the people there. And thats about it really. Its basically been sleep-eat-volleyball and repeat in various orders for the last few days, and will be for the next few as well. love you all xx

I'm off to auckland tomorrow for the start of the training camp and from there to samoa in a weeks time for the Oceania Champs. I'm both very excited and extremely nervous. and then i'll get home and have to figure out what exactly it is that i want to do with this year (and the rest of my life). But this trip should at least create a welcome distraction =D The mystery behind you is consuming me And I call conspiracy You made yourself an endless maze of love So I’d never give up Don’t want to leave this mystery I’ll never leave this mystery

tehehe we had a sleep-over at my house a coupla nights aog, it was great (if decidedly childish) fun! =D. We even made a fort outta blankets and chairs and everything... it must be at nearly 10 years since i've done anything like that.

True love exists, yes i know this My heart was waiting for you And when we met I felt my chest pound fast Racing for the chance To know you, to hold you To open up and show you The way it feels when you know...

This weak has been freakin awesome! started off well with an overnighter in hanmer with some friends which was great, esp being able to catch up with some of the girls who i dont get to see all that awesome. Oh and the 9 holes of golf we played were particularly fun (and funny). Then i got home and went to work ('joy'), after which i got an email offering me a spot in the NZ mens team to travel to the Oceania champs in Samoa! and if that wasnt enough, i just got a letter from Uni offering me a place in the chemistry honours program. Which i dont really know if that what i want to do, but we'll see. Finally to cap it all off the church christmas service is tomorrow which everyone's been raving about. Not a bad week at all really =D -------------------------------------------- December 18 Just got an email from the coach telling me that i cant go after all because its too late to change the airfares!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so PISSED OFF!!!! esp after i'd got all excited and organised time off work, a fitness training plan and countless other stuff. They even sent me an official letter of selection AFTER the coach told me i couldnt go! I mean surely they shoulda checked that they can take me before offering me a spot in the team? GGARRR ------------------------------------ December 19 WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA this is just getting stupid. I got a call from the team manager saying that they've sorted it out and now i can go. I think they're just toying with me now ---------------------------------------------- December 20 Looks like they're not gonna change their minds anymore. They've even put me on the official roster! hurrah!