Listening to: Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
Feeling: pissedoff
Went to night church today, by invitation from Vetti and Laura.
I felt quite a bit outta place but some of what was said struck a chord with me.
It was amazing just to look around and see all the people who believe whole heartedly in God and who rely on His love, support, care, guidance to shape their lives.
It makes me wonder if that is what i'm missing in mine.
Perhaps, in time, i'll know for sure.
but i always end up feeling sorryy for them.
&the pain theyy will suffer when god himself turns awayy from them.
that is, if this god person even exists.
sometimes, it feels like church is a game.
&everyone in it, the congregation, the father, are all pieces in this human gameboard.
it is strange to explain.