I don't know what to do...I feel...dead inside. I don't have enough energy to type how I feel on any diary or do anything at all...guess that's called life, huh? Thought I'd add the lyrics to the song I'm listening to. "Tourniquet" by Evanescence I tried to kill the pain But only brought more I lay dying And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming Am I too lost to be saved Am I too lost? My God, my Tourniquet Return to me salvation My God, my Tourniquet Return to me salvation Do you remember me Lost for so long Will you be on the other side Or will you forget me I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming Am I too lost to be saved Am I too lost? My God, my Tourniquet Return to me salvation My God, my Tourniquet Return to me salvation My wounds cry for the grave My soul cries for deliverance Will I be denied, Christ Tourniquet My Suicide