So i haven't updated since before spring break.. wow its been a while! so spring break was amazing! with Bri.. God i love that girl lol we met some pretty cool people down there that i'll always remember lol. So now it's like the second week of summer, i've already had some crazy summer adventures and its been amazing. Last night me and Laura had and some fun parking in the middle of the street and having the cops called on us... that was intersting lol. This sitdiary thing always makes me think of last summmer... so i think im gonna try and keep up with it again this summer. Well i just found out this morning that my grandpa died last night, so that sux for the family, but we're doing really good given the situation lol. well im gonna go figure out something to do. luv ya'all

So Spring break is in 2 days and thats basically amazing! Im going to the beach and my bestest friend Bri is coming with. So yeah were gonan be fabulously tan when we get back! oh yes, its gonna be amazing. Sorry to those of you who have to stay here in indy... that sux. SO yes right now.... life is good

basically: 1. life sucks 2. life sucks 3. life sucks & 4. LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah..... i got a myspace now, so sorry if i don't update very often (it's not intentional) the only bad thing about myspace is that it's frikin' hard to understand, (or maybe im just an idiot... i don't know) k well yeah.... x0x0

So yeah basically today is the best day ever (ok maybe not EVER.... but you get the idea) its a snow day, and i hae no plans of going anywhere or doing anything that i don't want to do. Im gonna stay home and just watch movies.....And of Course go outside some!! i mean come on, if it weren't for the snow then i would be in school, bored out of mind and beign forced to act like im enjoying myself. So i have to do soemthign to show my apreciation for the snow..... so i think i'll play in it for a little while. lol k well im gonan go enjoy the snow.

So yeah today we were on lockdown in school because there were 2 idiots running around shooting cops because they robbed a bank. It was scary to be stuck in a room for like 3 hours because we weren't aloud to leave the school. But in the end they were caught and we could walk around again, so thats cool. So my lifes pretty good again, so thats good, but i just have to be careful not to take it for granted like i did before. So yeah thats about it love y'all!

SO yeah when i said before that my life was good but it probably wouldn't last... i was right i know shit happens in life i just wish it wouldn't always happen to me. I was happy, and then all this had to happen. i wish i had taken laura's advice and not gotten involved, but i did and it came back to bite me in the ass. O well, life goes on. I know i'll get over it, but these things take longer to get over than i wish they did. Thanks laura for listening to me when i complain, and im sorry i didn't listen to you. Next time i'll take your advice, cuz i never want this to happen to me again!!!!

Ahhhhhhh.... break, it's a wonderfun thing. We got off of school on teusday and since then i have just been relaxing, it's been great. Wednesday night my family and i went over to the Gavit's house for an "unofficial" thanksgiving dinner. It was interesting, it didn't quit turn out like i thought i was going to, part of the reason was that i was really tired but o well. thats about it

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!! i like my life right now! (for once!!, but don't ask me to explain why, i won't be able to. Sometimes your just in a good mood, and have a good outlook on life. [ unfortunatly it won't last for long ]

Since my last update me and josh are talking and kinda hanging out again, i have dyed my hair again, and i am still without a guy. Im glad that josh and i are freinds again (not that we really ever were not, but we weren't exactly on good terms ((basically i was imature)) but i think you know what i mean)but i think the part that makes me most happy about it, is that he was the one who called me first to see where i was, and he was the one to hang out with em at clay terrace. I guess it's just nice to see that someone values my friendship (but maybe im wrong) As for the whole guy thing.... im just gonna give up and go lesbian. WOW! that would be weird, ok so no im not, but im just so frustrated that NO-ONE!!!! and i mean it no one likes me. but watever. I know its not realyl important... but i see my friends in these relationships and i feel left out. I know im not ugly and i know that guys will come, i'm just impatient and i want it NOW. But hey nothing else is going my way, so why should this be an exception right?! as for my hair.. yeah thats pretty self-explanatory....... i dyed it again. I really like it and i have gotten complements on it so i guess it looks good. Well thats about it for my sad, depressing life. (except for the hair of course)

So everything was going fine this morning until when we were in the starbucks drive through line i dropped my mascarra on my skirt (it's a really cute skirt 2, from Indigo Nation!!) so that made me very very upset as i guess you could understand. Then when i get to school everything is going ok until 7th period. I called my mom to see if she had talked to the people that i am supposed to babysit for tomarrow night and see if they could find anyone else to take my spot, because there is a party tomarrow night. NO she tols then that i would do the job. So that made me sooooo incredibly mad that i was almost in tears. Then when i get home both of my parents are like lecturing me left and right. I thought that they had gotten their fill of lecturing me last year, but i guess they still had some in them. So now my cell phone is broken (long story), i have mascarra on ly new skirt, i can't go to the last football game of the season, my parents are all over me about random stuff, and i mihgt have to miss the beginning of the party!!! i tell ya... life's rough!!!!

Well, it's been a while since i up-dated last.... i guess thats because nothing that great has happened. I found out that my friend is pregnant, so that's cool! Other than that its been pretty boring. This weekend im going over to Laura's house and we're going to dye my hair again... Im stoked y'all (it's about time!) so basically that's the highlight of my life right now! sad huh?! hahaha. O and i haven't talked to josh in like 3 weeks, but until he matures and realizes that everyone makes mistakes and that he isn't totally innocent in this... it could be a long time before i even think about talking to him. Or it could be never, but im fine with that.... so basically i don't give a ripp if he talks to me! hahaha K well that's about it for my life right now

So yeah school has actually been fun accept when i got sick... that kida sucks. Ok just so y'all know when you have a sinus infection and you take medicine for it.. Don't drink mountain dew!! it makes you feel more shitty than you already do! hahaha ok so yeah the Carmel dance was bassically the best thing EVER!! i had a lot of fun, and saw a couple of hott guys, so thats always a plus! ok well thats about it

This weekend i hung out with Bri... basically the best girl ever!!! we were gonna go se the excersism of Emily Rose, but then we decided to jsut hang out... i had to leave her house early in the morning, which kida sucked, but at least it was for something good like.... A Purdue Football Game!!!! that was definatly fun, i probably sweated off like 4 pounds, which was not fun.... but a part of the experience i guess. Purdue won 49 to 28 woot woot!!! Go Boiler's! then i came home and just hung out with my family and my uncle who is in town, that was kinda cool. Thats about it... but next weekend is Carmel and Heritage homecoming's so that will be fun stuff!!!

Well my best friend in the world came over to my house Sunday night and we watched movies.... it was basically the best time in the world, i wish that it was summer again so that i could have hung out with her for a while longer, but hey you have to go to school sometime! But we are going ot hang out this coming weekend, so its all good! hahaha ok i need to go to bed i am way 2 tired to be writting things on a public diary

So yeah so far this weekend i went bowling with Natalie, Kayleigh, Lacey and Jennie... it was fun but i got sick... Then last night (saturday) i went to the mall with Joshua Gavit, cuz he wanted someone to go with him while he took his sister, so that was fun.... there were a few aqward silences, but hey that jsut happens sometimes, then we went to O'Charley's, it was good but while he was on the phone with his mom (who thought it was juat him and his sister....) the waiter came and asked me what i had ordered, so i had to say something... but i don't think his mom heard me. Then we headed over to Blockbuster and Josh really wanted to watch Constantine so we got that and went back to his house... The movie was pretty good, but we didn't get to finish it, the Mexican was the best part!!! hahaha well im gonna go P.S.~ Josh we need to get that movie again so that i can see the end of it! lol

SO basically since my last update, i have worked everything out with my friend so we are all good, except for the fact that i now have to start from scratch in gaining back his trust... oh well life could be worse! Today i went to Wheeler Mission to help pick up trash in the community. It was a ton of fun hanging out with the kids that came. All of them were boys, and they were between the ages of 7 and 9 years old. They were all so cute.. especialy little Robert! Oh my Gosh he was cute. It was fun to gt to know them, but sad at teh same time, because these kids were finding things in trash piles that they wanted to take home because they thought they were cool, i think it's sad that they find things that they love in trash piles, but people here in Carmel get upset when they can't find the color of ipod they want, or they can't go to a resaraunt that they choose. I mean these kids were exstatic when they found out that if they picked up more trash than other people they would get a McDonald's gift card with only $5 on it! i mean it really made me stop and think about all the stuff taht i take for granted everyday! So that was definatly a highlight of my day!! Other than that i haven't done anything exciting.... but for Fall break i might be going down to the beach to stay in my grandparents condo, and i might be able to bring a friend so that would be pretty much amazing... now i just have to figure out who i would take..........hmmmmmmmmm

So i thought that all of the drama might be letting up, but who am i kiding... that's never going to happen. So i started to realize that one of my friends wasn't acting normal anymore, and i knew that something was up, but i didn't realize that it would get me this upset. When you are firends with someone, you never expect the day to come, for them to want a break from you ( unless of course you are dating someone, then this would not be the case) [ but i definatly was not dating this person!] So anyways, i knew that something was wrong, so i tried talking to them, but they wouldn't tell me. So finally i got it out of them. Basically they told me that they needed time away from me and two of my other firends. I understood the fact that they wanted time away from one of the other people, but not from me ( i know that that might sound stuck up, but what i mean is that everything seemed fine, and then all of the sudden.... they basically don't want to talk to me or see me.) It hurt sooo bad!! But i can't totally blame them, shit happens and sometimes you just neec time away from people to figure out what you are doing in life.. i mean i've done it before... but i never expected it to happen like this, between me and this person, or for it to hurt this bad. I might be blowing this way out of perportion, but i can't help the way it affected me... even if i am wrong. So basically to make a long story short, i hope this doesn't end our friendship, and i hope that they don't think that i am a total ass for saying this on a public diary, but you know what, i don't give a shit what poeple think anymore, if they don't like me for who i am, then they don't have to talk to me! Sorry for boring y'all with my life problems, im sure i'll learn sooner or later that people just don't care sometimes.

Ok so it's finally Friday thank GOD!!!! wow that was a long week! well the last few days have been interesting... kinda depressing because some of the people that i hung out with over the summer i didn't talk to all week which made me sad because tehir like my best friends! but o well i get to see them this weekend so that will be pretty much amazing! Tongiht im gong to a Carmel football game with Laura and other people! that should be great fun! p.s. I MIGHT GO TO CARMEL NEXT YEAR! yeah thats a good thing for me cuz i pretty much need to get away from Heritage

So school started on Friday, and despite the fact that i hate heritage..... the half day wasn't that bad! I have all new teachers, and it's a new part of the building, but other than that, i guess you could say it's tollerable. Thankfully the people that i wan'ted to aviod this eyar don't have the same lunch as me, so thats good. So enough about school! Last night i went over to Laura's house because we were going to swim, but we changed our minds and just hung out at her house, until we were ready to go over to the Churchill's. At the Churchill's we just hung out and ate food, then we played hide'n'seek. This was fun. The last game taht we played me and josh had a kick ass hiding place, if i do say so myself! We left, and from there me laura jeff and josh went to starbuck's, but then we realized that we only had like 5 min. 'till we all had to be home, so we left bassically right after we got there. Oh well, it was a pretty fun night! Well today me and my family are moving Aaron into his dorm room for college, so that should be fun, i feel bad though because alura is going to the state fair to meet cousin phil, but guess who else is going to be there..... JOE! dun Dun DUN!!! hahaha sorry laura that i can't go, i wanted to oober badly, but hey what can ya do, sorry babe!