A lot of hard things have been happening to me lately, i have to go back to a school that i hate, one of my good friends is leaving my church (Andrea if you ever read these, please don't leave us we still care about you and im sure that our church won't stay like this forever!)and my youth group bassically sux right now!! (not that the people are bad judt the stuff we have to do and some of the ideas they have)BUT!,I finally am feeling better, im eating more and i don't get depressed as much during the day. I think im gonna hang out with friends tommarow, which will be nice since i have been bored at home for a few days. For some strange reason i have no desire to hang out with anyone from HCS. It just doesn't sound like fun. I have really realized today that you don't need guys to be happy, i hope i won't regret sayign this in a public diary, but i have always been jealous of my friends who have these really great guys. I guess it just isn't my time yet. I know that i will find someone i jsut wish it would happen faster. But for right now im gonna jsut enjoy hanging out with friends, and not worry about anything else until i absoloutely have to! And as for goign back to Heritage next year i don't think i will ever stop worrying about that, but hey i shouldn't let one crappy school ruin the rest of my summer!