So, I've been neglecting this for awhile. I've got lots to post about.Prepare for a story filled with, nonsense,urination and amusement. So anyways.. where did I leave off. Oh ok,I left for Los Angeles on the 22nd,stressful day trust me. We almost missed our plane and we had to wait in lines ALL day. Went to our hotel, shitty fucking place. Saw a lot of mexicans, wanted to kill americans and had a creepy taxi driver that kept touching me. He was paki, of course. I'm cutting things short, because I'm too stoned to type too much. Okay, while we were there, we went to a bunch of places and I don't feel like naming them all because I'm too lazy. I keep shortchanging myself and it sucks. Came home on the 1st and slept forever. Went to school the next day hoping to get someone to get drunk with me. Everyone was doing something else. It pissed me off because I was clean for a week. I don't really remember anything else from that week. Yesterday I went to Red Deer and hung out with Vince and his friends. Got really fucked up, and left with my parents to go back to Coronation. I was hoping to stay to have some fun but it couldn't happen. Today I feel really sick and im vomiting A LOT. I feel like a whale. I woke up at 5 am this morning because I wanted to get stoned. I got stoned and stayed up until 11 am and passed out because I had excruciating pain. I figured out that marijuana is my only happiness. I have nothing to look forward to. I'm fat, ugly and stupid. If people keep telling me this, shouldn't I believe it? I shouldn't keep going out of my house and scarring people's lives. It's enough they have to look at this ugly world, but they have to look at me. I feel sorry for them. I bring them such pain, punishing them, humiliating myself , therefore bringing me pain. Everything I touch turns to shit. I'm considering plastic surgery. Okay, that's it , I'm going to stop typing before I get depressed. K THNX BI <3