So today has been a really fucking stupid day.. it's raining I might go dance in the rain. I wish Kaitlyn was around, it feels like I have no one to talk to, I really need to leave this town. I'm really bad with money..so bad. I can't figure out how to manage all of it with all of my habits. I really need to quit some of them. Tomorrow I might put on the patch , my mom bought some =P. I can't figure out what to do with myself, I should get a job here temporarily but I don't know where to apply at. The only places that are hiring are the drugstore and the bar. I don't really want to work in the drugstore because preppies work there (lame excuse) I know. When I turn 18 I can work in the bar.. hmm..7 months!! That's something to look forward to. The long weekend fucking sucked, I got mildly drunk on friday night, and went home earlier than I had expected, I hit the bong the rest=P. Attention-whored on the internet to all my cyber boyfriends. Kaitlyn had fun I think, I'm still waiting for her entry, although I haven't checked in her diary for a new one yet. I've been feeling really absent-minded lately and it feels like I'm going to be stuck in this haze forever. I get dizzy all the time and I feel really down. Kaitlyn has a mega-sexy boyfriend now, she says he's hotter than Sean and when he was on webcam he looked hot. I want a boyfriend, but I'm not the girlfriend type , I guess. I haven't looked everywhere though right! I try to have some faith in "there's one person for everyone out there!" but I don't know because I haven't experienced love and all that. I don't know if I should believe it or not. I'm still young, maybe things will change.. that's enough of my emo rambling. <3 you KT!