lately i've been really body concious --i remember a time where a simple haircut or makeover would suffice and my self-criticism would deminish... but lately, despite my efforts, i feel that i am being sucked into the pressures around me... yes--i admit--i am a big girl... i will never be kate moss [who wants to be?] i am not morbidly obese yet i am not a twig i've accepted that-- i dont know--i used to feel sexy despite my weight... i used to feel that people wanted me...i used to feel confident maybe it's summer--but just the opposite has come my way... i even started my school's cross country team to try and get a better chi--but my efforts have done just the opposite every other day i am surrounded by beautiful bombshells and hot guys--and it's just another reminder that i am [yet again] not good enough... that i will never be good enough...