U know when you find something thats is just perfect, but still does not quite work out in the end for you. Losing it it may be your greatest escape. He was like that. Everything I should have desired, and everything I had wanted. But still something was off. We had chemistry, humour, honesty but the one thing I quite cannot point my finger att was off. And that is the one thing I will keep on searching. Realising this is like a gift from god(I don't belong to church, but the saying is god anyways :)) .and now im fine.