hm Im starting to get less home sick, and fit in a little more, but i still would very much like to go back to calgary. :( i miss every thing.. all the people.. my school my house.. i got a boyfriend now, which sorta makes me feel a little more.. eased i gues. Like there is some one whos looking forward to being with me, and what not. but for some reason i still feel lonely.. Like. i cant let go of what i had.. and im finding it hard to accept ryan, which isnt fair for him. and its making it hard. because he knows, he can tell that im longing so bad for my calgary life. my calgary friends, and my calgary boyfriend. I like him and want to be with him, but i want to be with brandon so terribly bad.. and then it makes me want to break up with ryan.. ahg i donno wat to do :(