I finally know who i am somewhat....I don't deserve anything. I'm sorry for everything. I regret everything, the friends i have, my family and most of all.... my past. I don't see anything in me that people like. What is there to like about me ? I honestly have no idea. I don't deserve the friends i have now cause i'm just going to lose all of them in the end so what's the use. I'm sure i probably sound like ive lost faith in everything which i pretty much have. There's nothing good about me. I show the sensitive side of me but you don't know the other side of me. Life is just a nightmare to me. This is me.....A girl that has no hope nor faith. Now you know what i actually feel. I'm not doing this for attention i'm jus tletting my friends know what there in for. Song quote that describes how i feel *Now that I see that time's and change, Leaving doesn't seem so strange, I am hoping i can find, when i leave my breathe behind, All the shit i seem to take, All alone i seem to break, I have lived the best i can*

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I have been obsessed with love which i can not have. I can not have anybody to love. No matter how hard i wish i had someone it's just useless. If you think Love is my main accomplishment Your wrong. Passing school is then Love. I would tell you who i love right now more then anything (YOu know who you are) I will keep secret. I would die to be with him but I honestly can't be. No one has made me happier, No one has made me laugh so much when i'm depressed. That all i will say.......Good Night *NOTE TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS: I Love you...*

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I slept at Leana's house lastnight and damn it was fun. We went to her bf's house and a few other people were there and yea i got fucked up. If you know what i mean

I'm depressed....and yeai dont want anyone talking to me for a while.....sorry Summer. I just can't deal with you right now.

I Dont Have My Cell ANYMORE

i dont want anyone calling me. While im sleeping...hint hint SUMMER I'm very tired and i wont be here tomorrow. Ill be with my friend which came back from north carolina for spring break.

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Jeff and I Are Over again....... aburirenji978: hey kristin i need to talk to u befoul_linkin: yea aburirenji978: i just found out from denise that she is coming down here in a week and is gonna be here until otakon befoul_linkin: oh aburirenji978: and u remember what i said about me being with her when she comes down befoul_linkin: i guess aburirenji978: im really sorry aburirenji978: i just found out aburirenji978: if u hate me now i understand befoul_linkin: i dont hate you it wasnt your fault aburirenji978: but u pretty much understand what i am getting at right aburirenji978: i can be friends with u aburirenji978: but denise is my gf befoul_linkin: ok aburirenji978: im really sorry befoul_linkin: so your pretty much saying it's over right aburirenji978: yeah aburirenji978: i can still be friends aburirenji978: but denise doesnt want me to be talking to a second gf when she is down here aburirenji978: and i dont want to put u on hold that long aburirenji978: i am really sorry befoul_linkin: it doesnt really matter anyway does itr aburirenji978: kristin please dont get all depressed aburirenji978: u have alot of guys thaT WANT TO BE WITH U aburirenji978: sorry about the caps befoul_linkin: like fucking who aburirenji978: what happened to all the guys u were tellin me was hittin on u befoul_linkin: yea but trust me im not going for them cause i dont know them aburirenji978: u didnt know me either when u first met me befoul_linkin: yea but ive known you for like a few monthes aburirenji978: then do what u did with me with them aburirenji978: get to know them aburirenji978: like u got to know me befoul_linkin: im just gonna stay fucking single....till im like 20 aburirenji978: omg why r u getting mad aburirenji978: i told u when we first started dating that when denise came down i would be with her befoul_linkin: i know im not mad aburirenji978: well ur saying things like what u just said aburirenji978: ]thats called getting mad befoul_linkin: im not getting mad aburirenji978: fine whatever befoul_linkin: i understand ok befoul_linkin: r u mad at me ? befoul_linkin: Jeff i just want you to know. I still love you and i always will....I don't want to go out with anyone else. I mean i'll fucking wait for you. I love you.... aburirenji978: i can not have another gf on the side while she is down here aburirenji978: she wants me to break up with who im with aburirenji978: she did the same thing befoul_linkin: i understand befoul_linkin: well at least you know how i feel aburirenji978: well im tellinmg u bthat i cant be with u anymore befoul_linkin: i know aburirenji978: so please go find someone else aburirenji978: im sure u will find someone befoul_linkin: i dont know what to say but im fine with it ok befoul_linkin: i really am it doesnt bother me none befoul_linkin: ok dont talk to me good bye

Jeff was really upset last night cause no one would hang out with him today for his birthday and i kept offering that i'd hang with him and this morning we did. He ended up giving me a huge hicky and i had to tell my dad but my dad doesnt know that it was jeff so im cool. I'm the best at lying to my dad. While i was at Jeff'd house i cut myself on a piece glass and it hurts like a mother....good thing is that im not depressed anymore. He told me that this was the best b day he's ever had because no one in his family likes'loves him. im pretty much the only one he's got. I couldn't ask for anyone better.

Love has now been taken away from me.....

New ones of me DAMN I look good in this one Old/New pics

This is how i feel right now........... Artist(Band):A Thorn For Every Heart February Lyrics My home shrinking in the distance.(its just my time to leave. it's not the time to cry.) I'm leaving but I'll return(did you think before we got it) Every time you breathe I hope you think of me. Those are the words you told me, told me. No question. Why I have to leave. (I think its time to leave) One Reason, only for a dream (I think of what I'll see) This moment feels like destiny. (I want to tell you why.) Won't you tell me, tell me. (Won't you tell me, tell me.) You want me to always remember. I promise I always will. You'll watch and you'll wait for my return. I promise I'm coming home. For all the lonely nights when your not feeling alive. Look towards a midnight sky and wait for sunrise. This is the life we live the only one that we know. It seems to never end, never end. You want me to always remember. I promise I always will. You'll watch and you'll wait for my return. I promise I'm coming home. You know that I can't resist this.(It's not the time to grieve. It's not the last good bye.) I destine for roads unknown.(did you think before we go it) Every time you breathe I hope you think of me. Those are the words you told me, told me. So when will it end. When will it end....when will it end....when will it end Sometimes I don't know where I am, where I'll be. Feels like I'm so far, far away, far away from home.

*Note To Summer* What the fuck Summer. I can't love anybody else. I didnt know i couldnt love other people and just you. THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE JUST AROUND YOU. I'm sorry i love so many people. I'm sorry if you don't love me anymore. Now you know how i feel when you say you love someone. I'm sorry if i love Greg,Leana,Ben,Phoung,Jeff,Christina, My cousins, My family, Liz, and Will and You. But now i just dont know now. You hurt me more then anybody has but i do stil love you. Sorry if i dont pick up the phone when you call cuz i dont want to talk to you right now. Honestly i dont want to talk to you for a while. 2 days is not a while. 2 weeks is a while, just to make that clear. Soo Long And Good Night

Why can't everybody just leave me alone. I've had the worse week ever. And no body fucking cares and thats fine because i will not be here much longer.

(Not the whole convo) Jeff: i mean im hot Jeff: i mean i love u Jeff: ^_^ Me: you know what fuck it. I'm not good enough for you just to tell you. I'm not worth it. I'm not worth being loved. Jeff: yes u r Me: I am not worth it trust me aburirenji978 : yes u r Me: ok then why Jeff: because i love u Me: what were you going to say ? Jeff: u r a great person Jeff: I Love u Me: I love you too Jeff: i want to be with u in my room just u and me laying there holding each other Jeff: i want to be with u Jeff: i want to see u so bad Jeff: i want to pull u on top of me and just hold u close Jeff: see im much more romantic then ben Jeff: or if we want to just be together and hold each other Jeff: cause u want to know something Me: what is that? Jeff: when im with u Jeff: i feel like everything is gonna be alright Me: it will sweetie everything will be ok Me: i feel the same way with you Jeff: i love u kristin Me: i love you jeff Jeff: i want to be with u forever if we can be