One day. I put that ring on her finger in exactly 35 hours. Wow. I'm not even close to being sleepy. And this music isn't helping....I want nothing more than to squeeze her as tight as I can, and never let her go. It's so hard to belive just how close I've gotten to her. I pray I'm not hurt again...it'd kill me this time. I couldn't take another hit like that... But I'm now worried about it. Her smile tells me I'll be alright. Her touch tell me she'll never stray. And I thank God for her every night, I really do. Every night I lay in bed and pray for forgivness for my bad actions. I pray for guidance. I pray for her to stay with me. And I pray for God's plan to include our happiness. Sometimes I choke up when I do. Sometimes I smile. Everytime I miss her touch. Everytime... This is for all those girls who pushed me away. For all those girls who called me ugly. For all those girls that just fucked it up. She could of been you. You could be my queen, like she is right now. It's kill millions for her, and suffer an enternity in agony for her happiness. I wish I could explain how badly others cam so close. But no. No...I wan't good enough. Well...fuck you too. Yea that means you too Ashley, I hate to be a dick but it's true. You really fucked up girl. You had me just right...but couldn't be yourself. Now, you'll never have a man like me. Never. And looking at girls for what a man can't give you will never satisfy it. Maybe one day, when certain things dawn on you, you'll realise it's true...my words. Til then you'll search and search in pain. Janice, to you I apologize. I hate I hurt you like I did. I hope you find true happiness, you're a special girl. And no going to Cali for you... ;) And for my baby. Damn girl...one day. Can you see it? Our future starts Saturday at 2 pm. We both are grown Saturday at 2 pm. I love you, Sarah Elizabeth Locklear...and never stopped. All three of these years...though parts were hell...have taught me so much about myself, the world, women, and relationships. Thank you baby...for it all. I thank you in advance for our life together, and for that baby we'll have. I apologize for whatever pain I'll cause, and for anything anyone has ever done to you. I love you. I love you.