Right now.. I dont know what to think or what to do. Last week I was so happy and so excited, I couldn't even think about being worried, or being sad, or anything close to it. Now.. I really dont know.. Everything has changed, its all diffrent. My friends don't notice it.. My family thinks Im great.. So am I living a lie? I really like how I can put a fake smile on, and my friends won't even notice.. I think that things will start to get interesting.. almost like..de ja view... except one of your closest friends, leaving.. Today, I went to see "The sisterhood of the traveling pants" I was nice. I think I even cried a little. Not because of the movie, but what the movie had made me realize. It made me realize so much, yet they only said such little words. I just wish I knew what I was going threw right now... ..It is almost like.. im living in a shadow.. No one will notice a thing, if I did anything.