i feel so bad you dont even understand... i dont want to go into great detail, i just want to say im SO sorry... if there was a time machine i would buy it & go back & change all the mistakes ive made... but unfotunatly that is not possible... but i so wish it was... i wish i could live in my own world with bright green meadows covered in daisys being blown by the wind & it would always be happy & sunny & your favorite songs would be constantly in the background & there would be towns of gingerbread houses & youd be able to fly & everything would talk,-(animals, flowers, um everything) & only cool people would be allowed... uh yeah i think ill stop now.