why do i miss so much school? this is the last day, until im sick to the point i could die, im not staying home again! what i need is to find something that makes me happy, well, surfing & music makes me happy, what i need to do is surf more, & find some other hobbies, im learning the guitar, & i wish i could be better at art, i have it all in my mind, but i cant get it out on paper the right way, i suck, i think id be better putting what i think out into music... i wish i could be one of those flawless people, the ones you see in magazines, well you know all those people are airbrushed & they all dont really look like that, but i wish i could... i wanna change my look, really bad, i dont like having long hair, atleast i dont right now, blahhh, what i really need to do is find my personality, i think i have one, but i dont know what its like... im overwelmed with all this good music im finding, right now if i could marry a band itd be bright eyes, or belle & sebastian, orrrrr, ahh forget it, theres a lot... thank god for music. bye.