REMEMBER, THIS IS MY DIARY, I DO NOT HAVE TO EXPLAIN ANYTHING I WRITE, OR ANSWER TO ANYONE. I HAVE BEEN ANOREXIC AND BULIMIC FOR GOING ON THREE YEARS. I HAVE BEEN A SELF MUTILATOR FOR ALMOST 5. I AM CURRENTLY IN "RECOVERY" I HAVE A VERY FRAGILE IMAGE OF MYSELF SO PLEASE BE GENTLE WHEN LEAVING COMMENTS. IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN WHERE I AM, YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THE PAIN AND THE SUFFERING AND YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO TRY TO CHANGE. DO NOT ASK ME HOW TO BECOME ANA OR MIA. IT ISN'T FUNNY AND IT ISN'T GLAMOROUS. IT ISN'T JUST A QUICK WAY TO LOSE WEIGHT EITHER. IT IS A DISEASE AND IT WILL SLOWLY DESTROY YOUR LIFE. I DON'T WISH THIS ON ANYONE! I HAVE PUT A DISCLAIMER ON HERE, DO NOT REPEAT ANYTHING YOU READ HERE. DO NOT SEND ME HATE MAIL. IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU READ HERE, THEN LEAVE. THIS ISN'T A PRO ED DIARY. BUT I DO HAVE AN ED. SO DON'T BASH ME, I AM TRYING. IT IS YOUR CHOICE WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE, DO NOT BLAME ME OR MY DIARY FOR ANYTHING YOU CHOOSE TO DO. Hey beautiful Peoples(and all you other random people who happen to stumble across my diary) What's up? Not much here-Just broke a fucking nail) I hate that shit! Anyways. How is everyone? I am fanfuckingtastic. Dean has been in a series of moods today. Oh well. I am about ready to head home-I'm at his house now- i am kinda bitter/sweet about it. Bitter b.c I hate going home and sweet b.c Dean is staying the night with me and I don't have to worry about him being in a bad mood b.c of his mom. I met his grandparents today.....interesting. They are nice enough people, I can't help but think that I did something wrong... I dunno. I just ah fuck it, it doesn't even matter. So, NO school monday. Hip hip friggin hurray. Uhhhhh. Oh well I am listening to a goth radio station...It kicks ass! Haven't talked to alot of people lately. I pretty much just want to stay to myself.... Well seeing as how I am leaving I'll talk to you later. kayla