i got my report card and i did soooooooooooo bad im not showing it to my mom. my average was 67.5. im on probation from the grk club till like feb and i almost started crying at lunch b/c of that. i cant show my mom my report card so ill just tell her that there not meeting cuz of idk im gonna make up some lie. on sat im either gonna go to queens center mall or the city. i really wanna go into the city. i saw *him* today ::sigh:: and he gave me gum cuz i didnt have and i was like omg i love u and he goes yea yea i love u too and well yea nothing major. the bad thing about me is that i dont act out my feelings b/c if i did i would have kissed him on the cheek, i woulda been flirty with him everytime i saw him, i would have told ppl off at certain times, and done alot more but i dont act out my feelings so i dont do anything. thats y i turn to smoking and cutting and stupid shit like that