on saturday i went to a party, and i was so drunk, its the worst drunken night i've had. when i got home i was so bad and dizzy, that i threw up throw my window. the other day when i woke up, my mom found out and she freaked out so bad!!, she couldnt believe that i had done that, and she grounded me for a month (i know its gonna b less) so i cant use the tv or internet (im in school now) or go out. my dad didnt yell at me or anything, he just told me to dont do that again, cuz he would lose trust on me. Now i feel bad, and hell fuck, my mom hates me. Besides i have like 2 weeks without benji and its fucking killing me!! man! i need him right now, he would make me feel so much better. the only right thing i did this weekend is that i didnt cut, and thats very good, hehe, i think im kind of getting over that cutting issue.... anyways i think im gonna b gone 4 a while, just bcuz of a drunken night,........... but i love u benji, hi to u ppl who read this..