[mood||i dont reli know.] [music|nada] I wanna die. yes, u heard it, i wanna die. right now i seriously like hate my life. school sucks. i never see my friends, i'm losing them. my sister is moving out, i'm just so lonley. it sucks major ass and i hate it. I wanna crawl under a blanket and never come out...i feel like i don't know my friends nemore..i feel so outta place with them...except lizzie..she'll always be my number 1 girl, but i just never c her nemore.. i prob. sound like a psychopathic freak, but i'm not, and i'm saying i wanna die, when really i'm just unhappy..really unhappy. i still laugh and smile...but i don't REALLY laugh. i don't know if i'm going to homecoming or not. i kinda don't want to, i don't think i'll have any fun. first of all i'll feel bad for not going with jared. and he'll probably read this--but jared, i'm sorrry, i thought we were just friends--i dont really want a date for homecoming if i go, really i'm sorry. i don't know what to say. i thought we were just friends. Yeah--so there it is, hoped u liked reading it. later.