Well good afternoon my few fellow sitdiary users. I havent wrote a new entry for around 6 months now, and lots has changed but I sorta forget. the last comment i read next wins a cookie.

tonight was sorta lame. I walked around with jaydon and 2 other 16 year old punks. We walked from 11pm to 3am.. Just around to nowhere. I would have loved it if the people around were people I liked but they were gay. I went to that rodeo and Edite the French girl was there but I didnt see her. Jesus and Mohammed are told by jehova and allah to own me in my every step. Those MOFOS will get whats coming to them when I take over.... Prrrrrow! I like chicken I like liver meow mix meow mix please deliver!

well my pretty french girl left the other day. I didnt even see her at the hick infested rodeo. She was there but god put a cloaking device around her I guess... whats all your secrets of happyness? oh wont you share some shards of it with me? twin? brother? nothings allied to the dead man. I would stop time to stay time stay with you I would stop time so we dont move I would stop time I would stop time I would stop time to keep you

we all live then we all die. If we never die, then what is life? what are you afraid of? death... Death is a passing to another life, whatever that will be. Listen to me for I am not a fool. Period. great fear longs for your company. Do you see my eyes? can you feel my heart? NO!!!! NO TOMORROWW!!

How is it that less that optimistic entries always get more than 30 hits but the more medeocre ones get less than 10? Tonight was very bad for me. I watched my friend make out beside me in the back seat of a car with a girl that means little to him. That tears me up and 10x tonight I just thought shotgun.. you pick the mood. do whatever you want because I already know nobody has anything to say.

Well its may long weekend and im supposed to be passed out in some bushes about now considering the time but alas I have no ride. I may get one today wich is sunday, 1 more day out there if I go today. Damn what a disappointment. Shit like this alaways happens it seems. Nothing I can do there but why I get so hung up on it is a hard guess. Ill just drink all my beers right here. Forget my fears because nobody feels my tears.

yo whats up. havent updated in 1 month ad i still have nothing to say to you trick ass punks. 18th in exactly 1 month. drinking with my mom. whewt

::randomemotion:: flogging sallywaggers!! I wrote up my best entry to date and stupidly decided to press tab for a paragraph indent, intent. I ended up pressing some more keys and I guess found the shortcut key for page forward... gosh darn it was so purdyyy.... fried chicken refridgerated! well that effectively ruined my train of thought and my motivation. goodbye

hey hows it going? Im good. nothings exceptionally good or bad this time. I guess its not good, but a little bad. I slept to 7pm today. yep right through school. when im bored i get hungry haha. but i dont want to wake anybody up with my food gathering antics upstairs. I would like to live in my own place, but it costs so much I cant afford it till I graduate. on the subject Im on course to graduate by september. After that who knows? My dad wont pay my way after I grad, so I cant go back next year for upgrading. poo poo on that cause I was planning on going to SAIT (poor mans MIT) for electrical engineering or maybe a buisness degree at Mt.Royal college... whatever ill work my shitty arena job for 20 more years and live alone in a tiny 1 bedroom apartment with my computer hating myself for not trying hard when i was yunger yet not trying to correct myself in my erronious ways and actually get my life on track. the worst thing is I know about it in time to start trying but Im too lazy... damn i suck

well the verdict is in! im accentric since im so crazy, im going to do a dance **Dancing**

Can crazy people go crazy? what would that be called?

I dont have to proove shit to anyone, right? I wish....

We are all such heuge pawns in this world. we are fed ideals through the media. Id almost go as far as to say brainwashed. Notice how they continually replayed the 9/11 plane crash over and over for hours after it happened? thats how you break sombodys barriers down and make them more accepting and less anylising. then you see good 'ol George Doubleyuh telling you that it was a terrorist attact from osama. He already had plans to invade iraq and seen this tradegdy as a way to get the popular opinion for his upcomming re-election. without 9/11, nobody would have agreed with the invasion. what did it do to fight terrorism? WMD? dont think so. spread hate of americans? INDEED YES YES!! Fanatical Hatred for the US and therefore the rest of us western countries is even played down. do people realize what is happening!?!?!?! LIKE LOOK! THERE IS NO STOPPING TERRORISM WITH WAR, WAR BREEDS TERROR, YOU KILL EVERY TERRORIST ON EARTH, MORE WILL SEE THAT AND HEAR THE CALL TO ARMS OF THE DECEASED ROLE MODELS!!!! WW3 Will be our generation, dont you see? and theres nothing we can now do because we have be stripped of our reasoning and are bathed in this media frenzy. we have no voice cause we have no will. we are dead people. You may die you will also encounter a barrier in your thought process wich the CIA refer to as a slide, look it up, the CIA has alot of knolege in these fields, for they use the same methods because they are more effective then bullets at controling people. If you BREED people to think how you want them to think, you dont even need to force them to do what you want1! its like breeding willing slaves wow. Too late to try adn salvage because people are born shackled to norms, things that arent normal CANT be true, can they? normal is nothing, realize that its a way to control. the need to be normal drives people to be like whatever there shown as normal talk of war brings people to think of war more. the more we talk about war the more it embeds in our very BEINGS. you are free yes, but the morals you hold are based on ideals placed into you to dumb you. TV, Movies, so much of everything contributes to this state now. the failure of the new world THE FAILURE OF THE NEW WORLD

shit shit who Is shooting us!! Well I fail CALM and Math 20A.... fuck I suck I have 50 credits, I got fired from my GOSU job at the arena for not showing up. FUCK PEOPLE I DROVE A ZAMBONI(!!!) if you arent canadian then you are probably not familiar with the vehicle so use Google for what it is for.. 50 credits need 100 1/2 a year to do so 5 credits for a full time course(6x a week) 3 credits for a part time course(3x a week) max of 5 (including earlybird, I have a class at 7am) that would be a max of 30 credits full on the 3x a weekers. whewt 20 off thats only a full semister of grade 13!!! too bad I can only take 3 3 credit courses because I need to do English30, Social 30, Math 20A, Math 30A wich are all 5 credits.... ANYONE THAT IS IN GRADE 10 AND IS SLACKNIG TIME TO PICK IT UP OR YOU WILL FAIL!!!!! YEA So on to others... the almost non existent others. I am now offically a computer nerd. I play mega amounts of time to this machine so I can escape the problems it causes me. Its just an excuse to procrastionate more. for me Girls are VALUE=0. I aint got none in lamemans terms. Friends are VALUE=2. I have 1x good friend and 2x perifrial friends. WTF indeed am I doing?? Im even complaining about this stupid self brewed shit like 'OoOoO PooR Me!!1' how immature. how pitiful. how...... retarded to continue

I know everything I need to know about life but I just cant pull myself out of this rut. I got few friends, no job, no money and no pot. one thing that is going for me this evening is this eatmore. MMMMM toffee... yea I got diabetes now too >< No use complaining about how im so fcuked over in life cause were all born and we all die (accept for jesus, he lives in my basement). Everything good or bad that happens doesnt decide how good of a life you will live or are living, Its how happy you can make yourself. you dont need things or even people to impress to be happy, just set goals and reach them, dont quit when life tries you, thats what its all about. try your dandest in everyting you care about and in the end you will be where you belong. Lives all a race against time, the faster you do things, the more fun you can have doing it. Just wake up tomorrow and GO! and from that point on just never look back or worry about the future, in time everything will fall into place. I dont mean months but years. Many years it will take you to be a happy man. I will do this NOW and take any abuse I trouce into 'till I get to my going.

I think I know what I want to do with my life. Im going to be an educated bum :) I will get a PHD in philosiphy or psychology, somthing like that, and Just work dumb little peon jobs and persue more knolege and wisdom. haha that would be the life for me, a scholar essentally since I really dont like doing the same thing every day for years and years.... Problem with that is It would make it hard to have a wife, perhaps kids. I hope I meet that perfect opposite somewhere along my path. You all feel them too, perhaps a figment and hopefully tangibe soul mate to be cleche. Perhaps a musician, writer or somthing in the art. I have a very good mind for that stuff, just do not have much passion for success.. Haha Im going to be a philosopher and thats Final.

I think that everybody that reads this will agree that the world as it is is doomed to fall soon. I want to remind you that we are the generation that will ether prove our race as good(race=HUMAN), or spin into a crushing world of hatred and suffering. Ya I know I sound crazy... But think.... in 20 years, we will be the people who hold all of the political power. make sure that you always vote and always keep an eye for the truth, even though it could be very enticing to believe their lies. If we continue to live above the rest of the world like this, we will be destroyed in the most litteral meaning of the word.

This really bites. went to hang out with a cool chick, and my bud clint decides that he wants her. spent the remainder of the night watching them make out before i got fed up and left. Now i really want sombody to share this super sad song from nirvana.......

what more can I say? people get some good ass music and just lose yourself on it.. you will be amazed where you drift off to

i cant type someone save me and open there selfe to me before i got CRAZY!?!?! im drunk so WHATEVA i hate myself for what i try to be...... plz why dont people like me? if you are from AIRDRIE then plz comment i am really not that bad of a person, i just feel so rejected..... the screeen is black and blue. how are you? I am fine, wish you would be mine :) I now smell like pine because of the fire that i stood alone beside! fuck i cant even communicate how i feel. how can I when im supposed to be normal. arent you all the normal anyway???? im not fucking normal at all.... my thaughts would not even be coherent to you right now. i wish you were in front of me right now so i could meet you instead of just youre words typed on a little screen. i feel so scared and so alone.... and i know why i do. its because of what you feel right now. im so against the norm its not even funny. all you pop-punk boys and girls should follow me and NOT follow ANY NORMS. like you wanna be different but dont have the courage to be truly yourself... WTF dont love me, dont even like me.