As the title explains, My useless rants that usally fill this empty box really dont represent me or how i really feel. The truth is I have no idea who I am and where i should fit in. Im not depressed ALL the time and I do get happy but it all seems so..... monotonious. I think i should just fuck it and me a loser, cause thats where i Feel comforable. like I could be such an amazing somthing but i dont know. Nothing i say bears any resemblence to my mind. I feel everything and nothing all at the same time and im so tired of this predictible cycle of life. I dont have to live 60 more years to find out im just a sheep like everybody else. dont get me wrong, im not suicidal(today) I just feel...... nothing. Like the rest of my life could happen in one days time and i would care nothing for it. Fuck maybe I just need sombody there for me or that relies on me; give me meaning to my life and fill me with life.