My dad is parinoid, he thinks that the child welfare are hiding around every corner! he had a meting with them about where would be the best place for me to live. i have pretty much a non-existent family. My mom abandoned me for her boyfriend 2 years ago and since then i have been living with my brother(19). Anouther thing that bothers me constantly is the heauge workload on me from school. i got a 25 hour project due in 2 weeks :( and i havent started yet!! i also have 3 modules to do in 2 weeks. if i fail anything i get held back and dont graduate with my (few) friends.... my dad is insane. he yells at me for leaving school 2 minutes late. he will follow me to school 10 feet behind me in my bike and harass me about how im gonna be late. i never am. I really want a girlfriend, but not just any girl. i want someone i can confide in. I cant spell. in neurotic. if i had a girlfriend... id be so happy! but a depressed guy cant impress so ill just sit in my shell and wait and bleed :P P.S. Whats the point of writing this? its a release? Yeah. but a girlfriend would be better P.P.S. i just want some loving isnt exactly sexual, i mean ithe actual term "lovin" lol