So Confused, yet again!

Listening to: Dick all!
Feeling: bothered
So here is the downlow....The guy that I have been with for a while now...had a girlfiend, which didn't bother me at all at first...but then as soon as things progressed with us I started to feel guilty and didn't think that it was fair. Usually I could give 2 shits...but I think its because I was slowly getting emotionally involved, and I couldn't let that happen. So lastnight at work we were talking on the phone, and I told him that I could no longer see him anymore...he was really shocked, and seemed quite upset....It's not like this was super easy for me either...but not that difficult. He said that he needed to talk to me after work and that we had to talk about this, so I agreed to meet with him. When he came to pick me up it was weird...I knew what I had to do but I didn't want to! Though I did it anyway....it's what my instinct, and concience told me to do. He looked like he was about to cry when I told him that I cant talk to him all the time anymore, and I don't think that I could handle hanging out with him again right away...he said that he understood, but didn't want this to happen....I said to him YOU HAVE A GF!!! AND I NEED A MAN I CAN CALL MY OWN!!! he said I know, I know...well I told him that he can't have the cake and eat it for two. So anyways....when we got to my house...we talked a little more and I agreed that we would ocasionally hang out as friends here and there...but nothing more or nothing less. So then he asked me to give him one more hug, and I did and then that was that. After about a hour and a half he called me and told me that he already missed me and that if I ever needed anything to give him a call. My response to that was..."if you ever become single let me know, but it might be too late by then..." and I left it at that. And I haven't heard from him yet... :-( I know that I did the right thing, but why do I feel sooo odd? It's a feeling that I can't explaine.... I'm in need of some advise...let me hear what you have to say... Thanx...
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wow thats a hard one. all i can say is that you did the right thing. it will suck for awhile but if you stay away from him it will get easier.
hey z...im proud of u...and of course its gonna be wierd...u actually had feelings for this guy...and u had to let him go...of course your gonna be upset...but hopefully things will work out for the best!! good luck sweety
hey babe. I know the feeling. I cannot get involved emotionally with anyone do to past relationships. did anything like that happen to you?
Let me give this a stab...when something challenges your moral system, either decision that you make is going to bare an emotional consequence. You did the right thing, but it comes with a little sting. If you just concentrate on the fact that you made a justifiable decison, just know that it keeps you honest and good-hearted, this, in time, can prove to be very rewarding. Smile!
awwww hope your feeling better about this soon, i think it was for the best since he couldnt leave his girl and like you said....something about cake lol wht you did was right and if i was in the same situation as you then i wold the same thing. i also wana take this time to thank u for the comment u made in my diary. im will think about it alot and dont say "i told you so" again ...plz lol anyways take care!! miss u lots, lov ya (K)(K)
Well thank you, I've had my share of life experiences to go through...I'm always quick to pass on some of the things I've learned!
Well, I don't know all the details to what ya'll did together, but if ya'll did the naughty stuff...then you should let him go. Just cause he cheats on someone else dosen't mean he won't cheat on you. ;)