Hmm I’m not sure what to say about today. I worked a lot and didn’t forget to feed the fish, that’s an accomplishment I’m sure of it. It was weird not driving my brother to the bus station though. My legs hurt and I’m a bit grumpy… and I’ve got these damn butterflies about a boy who probably doesn’t return or even want them, and, well its starting to make me a bit sad. I knew I should have ran when this all started, but its him… and I know this is going to hurt me but I can't change how I feel... I can’t turn away. Why can't things just ever be easy? On to brighter more hopeful subjects, I’m working tomorrow without Boss man or Jessie the brat around. I don’t mind the Boss, I really like talking to him in fact, but I worry about making a mistakes around him. So it will be nice not to be worried or greatly annoyed. Plus I’m probably going to go clubbing with Bobby and some others at Woody’s tomorrow night which hopefully will be more fun then last time. And, the best news of all I finally get to go to the beach Thursday with Cait and all this is making me very happy and hopefully I can forget the other stuff.