I feel like I should just give up, truly and honestly. Every time I try I just get smacked down to the ground. It just keeps getting harder and harder to pick myself back up. Whats the point anymore? when I know I'm just going to fall harder then I fell before. Maybe I should learn just to stay down. My 'art' is going fucking no where. Honestly I don't know what anyone sees in me. Its all talentless and uninspired. I can't maintain a relationship much less friendships. I can't even find one guy that'll give a fuck about me, they just take what they want until they don't want me anymore. And, I let them, I let them use me. I always think, this time it will be different, and it never is. Nothing ever changes. My friends all have there own lives now, and I can't be anything but happy for them. My job is only good for screwing me out of money. I'm going to graduate with a useless degree. I'm so fucking talentless. I'm fucking useless. But I'll never learn, I'll never let go of 'hope'. All I want is someone to give a fuck about me, but no one ever will. I wish someone would just end this embarrassment of human existence.